my life

I'm exhausted from everything .

2012-02-12T22:58:00.001+08:00

Finally found time to blog !like... Finally!

Job was find eventually , colleagues were okay . Took 2days mc cause not feeling well. Money flew away ):

Sigh , times pass so fast , it's february now, which means , I'm gonna be 18 real soon. But , sad to say , I'm not even in a single lil bit of mood , to celebrate ; enjoy it. Not even a tiny bit.valentines day's like a normal day to me. Nothing special about.

Things happened alot this past few weeks. It happened too fast & I have never ever imagine that this kind of things would ever happened . Now , serious speaking , I do have nightmares on that incident you know. Just that I force myself not to tell anyone , including you . I can jumb up of bed sleeping half way through .

I just wanna relax , wanna chill. I don't wanna think bout anything anymore. Too exhausted to think , too exhausted to over react on it anymore . Let it be, if it's meant to be , it'll be. Isn't it ? It's either separate ending or happy ending , if it's mine , no matter how much I push it away , how far I throw it away , it will still come back .

Things happened , mostly its my fault , I admit , I agree. Cause I over concern , over worry . So much over leads to what had happened . So now , I'm gonna stop whatever I've done , I take it easy , I'll let it be easy. I'm gonna calm myself down when things happened .

Do you know that , even when I had you by my side , I still feel that I'm alone . I feel so insecure , I'm so paranoid of things . Do you know ? From your action , you're telling me that, you can always throw me aside , you pushing me away , & this push , make our distance , very very far away .

What's going on ?

2012-01-19T02:14:00.001+08:00

Yeah ! I'm back to revive my death blog. Yes , just celebrated my hubby's birthday not long ago , 12th january , actually birthday on 13th January .

Went to Safra to cut cake with his friends , and then head to tanglin mall 288 to drink . & yeap , mr tan he did drunk , but next day he claim that he's high only . So whatever it is , I guess he had a wonderful birthday celebration with his friends(: On the actual day of his birthday, steamboat celebration with family (: hope he enjoys his days (:

Yeah , comfirm changing to a full timer in february , some told me I'm going to wheel lock , some told me paragon. Nah , I'm having neutral feeling towards it , no matter what outlet I'm going , I still gotta leave Orchard Central . So to me which outlet also can . As long as I get lots of money ! Muahahaha ! Birthday coming in around ,1month and 6days ? Hahaa ! I can't wait you know ! Sigh ... Hope it goes smoothly.

Mr Tan ,
Happy 20th Birthday to you , I hope that you enjoy your celebration eventhough it's not as good as the previous year . But still I wish you all the best in everything you do , wish your work goes smoothly for you , wish that you can end army asap (: may your wishes come true . Take good. Care of yourself yah ! I loveyou<3 (sorry bout your belated birthday present , I hope you won't sad or angry alright )

That's all then !

& seriously , i had lots of fun at orchard central , especially with the company of patrick & Azri ! Buey tahan them seriously .

January.

2012-01-04T02:05:00.001+08:00

Hell lo ! I'm back to revive my lifeless boring dead blog !

Yeap , work today , had real lot of fun at Nike ! But sad thing Is , Firdaus's at reservist, joker not in . Sad , but Patrick ! My best pal , cause I'm the spongebob .. Gagaga^^ ! And Azri plus Corey ! Funny peeps ! Seriously , without them , I guess my working life would be dead hell boring !

Confusion ; I don't even know whether I'm a part timer or a full timer yet . Sigh.. But confirmation will be done by tomorrow I guess ? Cause they having a meeting tomorrow ! Yeap.

& yes ! I do miss my fiancé , he has been going to gym and started to run to keep himself slim and fit . So he can ditch me & look for other girls right ! Hah, kay , hope he doesn't saw this , if not he's gonna kill me ! >p.

I was kinda angry in the beginning when I saw those post . Cause who are you to judge ? Who are you criticize on my boyfriend ? It's my relationship , my love life , nothing to do with you . I guess you don't have a need to interfere isn't it ? & if you wanna say I made excuses for not coming to work , I can say I didn't . Wanna believe it or not its up to you. I won't waste my time explaining so much.Not that I don't respect you,I do. But you ruin that respect I've showed you.I already told you before , thus I won't say it again.i can't change your thinking,it's up to you anyway.i just hope someday , whatever I've said will get into your mind.yeap. That's all I guess .

8more days to yours ; 1month 21more days to mine ; 6 more days to our <3

2012. A new beginning

2012-01-01T02:33:00.001+08:00
Hey what's up ! 2012 !

Yeap ! Finally , oh like finally 2011 ended ! Thank god ! 2011 ain't a good year for me you know . Things cock up , quarrels , misunderstandings & etc . But I'm begging for 2012 to be a great one for me ! Asking for nothing more . Just hope that it would be a good one for me !

& hell yeah ! I'm starting my full time job as a sales person at Nike SUTL today , 01.01.12 ! I promise I'll work fucking hard , earn fucking lots of money & fucking let those who thinks that they have money they're big fuck to fucking keep back their words which they had said to me ! Yeah .. I don't know what I'm talking about , cause it doesn't makes any senses anyway . But I don't give a shit ! Muahahah !
Kay , I should really go to bed , i gotta work and effing wake up at 7 plus ? Gotta reach there by 950am ! Darn ...

To my Dearest Sweetest Monkey Baby/Hubby/Cute Boy/Husband to be ;
Thanks for everything you've done for me previously ,im really glad that you're the one who stood by me at time when I needed someone to pull me up , give me a hug & support. I know I showed temper & give you my suck up freaking bad attitude . Thanks for those tolerance showed alright ! I know we had been quarreling because of me at times thus lead us to drift apart at that short period , but I'm glad that we get back to what we are now . I will never forget everything about us. I love you baby !
Thanks for ending 2011 and starting a new year of 2012 with me , kissing me to show me that you want me to stay with you and telling to celebrate every new year with you . Mr Tan. I Love You !

Merry christmas & happy new year !

2011-12-26T23:46:00.001+08:00
HO HO HO !! Merry Christmas !
Oh yeah ! Today's Ye 26th of December 2011 . Yesterday was Christmas day ! Hahaha , second year Christmas spend with dearest baby boy ! Last year was with his family , this year is with both our friends .

Was working during christmas eve ! (hah, see .. Imma hard working girl alright ! So stop saying that I'm a lazy bum) after that went down to joshua's house which is at upper serrangon , for count down and steam boat feast . It was indeed a steam boat feast , I eat almost everything ! So hungry you know ! Hah , watch them played poker cards & homed after that .

Was having flu this few days ! God damn it , especially at night . I couldn't even sleep ! Fuxk it man !

Oh yeah ! Let's talk about today ! 1st day of work at Nike SUTL Company . Was kinda nervous and panicked the day before . Couldn't even sleep last night till 5am plus I guess ? Worked at Orchard Central ! Colleagues there 's quite friendly , didn't have any problems .
First time in retail line , I thought I couldn't make it . But guess what ? I didn't knew that I can handle this so good . Was so surprise that I could sold so many stuffs out in just one day . Even colleagues also clap hands and say i'm power , first day only can sell so many things .I'm so happy & sort of abit proud of myself (: wasted , no commission now , but no need to worry , I'm converting to full time soon , in 1st of January 2012. Hah , basic pay plus commission . I'm very sure I'll keep chionging my sales and keep earning lots of commission . Yeah !

Anyway , now , I'm just a part timer . As a part timer , I already enjoy so much . I'm sure full time , I'll be able to enjoy more .

Kay , im going to bed now , working tomorrow ! I'll update again (: maybe soon ! Stay tune peeps !

2more days to X'mas ; 8more days to 2012

2011-12-23T01:03:00.001+08:00
Don't know why , i felt like updating now adays , guess it's because I couldn't sleep .

Hmmm, slept thought out the whole day today I guess . Thus , I don't really feel tired now.

Sigh , 8 more days to 2012 . Like a finally . Things ain't good for me this 2011. I hope that things would be better for me when 2012 starts . At least a good beginning . That's the only thing I'm asking for .

New Year Resolution for 2012 ;

-1) Studies ; Hope that i can take up at least O'level this year . And make sure I put in my very very best effort to make it pass.

-2)Work ; Need to work hard and earn more money . Make sure I save most of the money so that I can study !

-3)Family ; Accompany my family more , as i know I've been neglecting them alot . I should cherish the times with them instead of quarreling .

-4)Relationship ; I hope that , me & hubby tan , we can last , lesser quarrel , I have to be more mature & don't always find trouble with hubby. No more childish act .

-5)Temper/Attitude ; Try not to scold vulgarities , try not to be so violent & act like a lady . Control temper and learn to let things go . Forgive and forget . Whatever thing I wanna do , had to think twice before I act.

-6)Car license ; Try to get a car license by next year if possible (:

& the last one ; hope that everyday spend with happiness .

Yeah , I guess that's all for my 2012 resolutions. I can't wait for 2012 to arrive ASAP!

Yeap , & 2 more days to Christmas ! But sadly to say , I'm working on that day ): sigh , but nevermind , after that , I can celebrate christmas ! Oh yeah ! Still manage to go for countdowns , as I end work at 11 ! Won't be a problem I guess ? Hahah ! Sigh , this year , no christmas present ! As , I'm kinda broke now . Maybe a belated Christmas present ? Heh !

Thing's are settled ! I guess , I think too much again. I should go to doc and ask them to inject some medicine to stop me from overthinking . Seriously, I hate to be in this state z but I guess , everything's gonna be fine now (:

I love you Jason Tan !<3

Christmas party & interview .

2011-12-22T03:16:00.001+08:00
Went wheel lock to interview at Nike shop today , decided to try on a route . Thinking of taking up retail sales line , as I hope I can do sales as good as my F&B line.

Hmm, went to Traders christmas party today , had lots of funs , with those banquet staffs , be it captain or part time staff , I really do enjoy working with them alot alot . No politics like how office line have . We work as a team . I can really say that , traders is the most wonderful job I enjoy now . But sad , as I don't think I'll have the time to work at traders now . But I'll go back once in a while (:

Hmm, I'm back home an hour plus ago ? Lying on my bed , couldn't sleep , so decided to update this lifeless blog of mine . Hubby went to Malaysia with his friends , hehehe !! I hope he enjoy his day . I do miss him , I really do .

I'm gonna try my best in everything , be it those out come's good or bad , I'll still try my very best .

Sigh , I'm having insomnia this few days , what's happening to me now b how did I make myself become son worst ? Eyes bags , dark eye circle all getting worst . Having nightmare almost everytime I close my eyes . How can I go to sleep without all this tormenting dreams , without all this negative thoughts ? Sigh , I think I'm falling sick soon ! What's going on now ?

I miss us <3 , I really do . Hubby ..

Santa grant me my wish will you ?

2011-12-21T02:11:00.001+08:00
Met you today , you ask me why I'm not smiling and bearing a frown on my face . You ask me is it because of you or am i tired . & my thinking was ; "how could I smile when my heart hurt with the thought that what had happened ? With the flash back im the one who started everything ? How can I smile when I'm assuming that you can live happily without me by yourside ? How can I smile when I'm feeling insecure , feeling that I'll be losing you anytime ? How can I ?" But I wouldn't dare tell you , I'm afraid that if I said this out ,we quarrel again or make things worst. So I chose to keep quiet .

Fearing of losing you , fearing of not having you by myside , do you know how much it hurts ? I know deep down. , I had done wrong , alot alot of wrong.Felt that some things you said today pricks into my heart , is like every thing you told me felt so sarcastic . Maybe I think too much . But only truth , you know it yourself . I don't wanna assume anymore as later cause more problems. sigh ,I don't know what I'm thinking but your actions shows me that you don't love me like how you use to anymore . The feeling , like as if it had faded . I tried to control my tears , my heartache infront of you. Yeah , I succeeded . But this few nights , all the flashback haunt me again. Making me feel that I'm so pathetic , making me feel like I'm a loser. Having this tormented feeling for 3 nights .

Thinking back what I had done to you . Seriously , I must admit , you must be suffering alot from me . Cant believed that you actually tolerated me for 19months & 10 days ? Im sucha loser girlfriend , no wonder all my relationship doesn't last long . Problem not because of them , but me , myself . Still never learned my lesson . I wonder when I will really be awake and learn te lesson ! Do i really had to lose you then i'll be awake ?i don't want this to happen. I'm begging that this won't happened , I really don't wanna lose you . Hubby ...

I really wish that we can walk together till we die . But wish will only be wish isn't it ? If it's mine , no matter how much or how harsh I push it away , it eventually will come back , but if it isn't mine , no matter how hard I grab onto it, it'll still leave me . It's fate isn't it ?

My Christmas wishes ;
Firstly ; I hope that my family will be happy & healthy .
Second ; I wish that Santa would bless me that the journey I'm walking now would be smooth .
Lastly ; Santa I wish you can bless me and my current boyfriend to have a happy ending .

That's all I wished for .

Hubby Jason Tan Ying Rong ; I know I had been making you suffer through out this 19months plus relationship. Im sorry , I know being with me , you ain't really that happy. But I just wanna thank you that , through out this relationship , I learned alot from you . Really alot . Thanks you so much . And thanks for loving me . I had never regret that i've met you , never regret falling in love with you . & I know I won't be able to find another guy like you.To swear and tell you the truth I did cherish our relationship. I did . But I dont think you felt it. It's okay , cause I know , I've done thing wrong that make you felt that way.I know i had disappoint you. But I hope that one day you can forgive me . Be it now or later . & I just wanna say i really love you , second guy walking a relationship this long with me. Between you and my ex , you're much more better ,you taught me so much , you give me so much to hold on to , you gave me so much memories to remember , I can't find a reason to let you go , I can't find any reason to make my love for you stop. I simply can't . I don't know why.

I can't stop loving you but I don't know whether you can anot ... Tell me your truthful answer please ?

& Dear Santa , I wish you heard me . I don't need you to give me any present , but grant me my wish please ? Can you ?

December

2011-12-20T01:06:00.001+08:00
Today's the 20th of December , everything's come so suddenly . Didn't knew things would end this way , or rather didn't realize that things can become like this .

We quarreled last night , and you say out alot alot of things , be it that it hurts me or not , you manage to it say all out , and finally I realize , things wasn't that simple as I thought it would be .

Long ago you were already unhappy with me , my temper , my attitude , you couldn't accept it all. My flaws , you couldn't take it . Where else , your/ , I only manage to use to it some. I realize our communication sucks . Every really , my mind , my hearts lstill lingered with whatever you've said .

My feelings now , paranoid , unsecured , insomnia . I don't know when you're going to be gone again. Leaving me with a heart attack . I thought you would understand . I thought actually you're that guy for me . But I realize , no.. Actually you ain't that guy I'm looking for .

I know I'm not a good girlfriend either , I know I'm useless , I know I know. But it simply hurts to heard this coming out of your mouth. Seriously hurts . I didn't lied to you , I did go to work. I did try my best in everything I've done . But what hurt the most is that , you , being my closest person , my boyfriend , my so called future husband to be , didn't even believe in me , don't even trust me . Don't even support me now. How can we last ? How can we last ?

Its really hurts , hurts alot . I beg you to come back again. How can I be so foolish again? Begging a guy to come back again .. Showing a guy my weakness , my desire , my love for him. It's hurt that most which you gave in everything , giving your very best to someone you loved , but that person , treat it as rubbish , push you away like he saw nothing . This hurt the most . I can tell no one , but only rant here . This feeling sucks . Really sucks .

I swear I'll never be in love again. I swear I'll never give everything to anyone again. I'm really afraid of getting hurt . This is worst then anything else . I love you , that's why I try my best in everything , even though my attitude sucks , but everything I do you're always in my mind . But today ,I finally realize , I'm just being a fool outta myself .

Lim Shu Chuan , it's time for you to let go . Learn to protect yourself , learn to love yourself more then anything else. Since no one appreciate you , it's okay , you prove them wrong and one day , they'll regret whatever they had said to you . Shu chuan ! Better wake up , it's time for you to wake and don't sink into it anymore . Not worth it , the pain might be unbearable , I know I understand . But one day , you'll still have to face it. Why not just face it now then later ? Why not get hurt now then later ? Don't wait anymore shu chuan ! Be awake okay ! It's time for you to really let go already .. Face the fact , face the cruel reality .

2011-12-11T16:16:00.001+08:00
Hey December !

Oh god , things ain't that smooth as I thought it would be .

Working as per normal this few weeks ! Work early ended late . Can't believe that I actually can endure so much . Not enough of beauty rest and little appetite . I still manage to pull and drag myself up to work . Surprise isn't it ?

Trader's have lots of event this month of December . Banquet's having a Christmas party on the 21st . While there's competition on the 15th . Which means this coming thursday . I'm still not prepared yet ! GG.com

Well , over all I did enjoy at my work . Really lots of fun . Enjoyments and stuffs . Captains , managers & colleagues , never fail to brighten up my days . How can I not enjoy myself there eh ? Haha !

19th Monthsary , even though I didn't have anytime to meet you , but still , I miss you and love you .

Thing's getting confusing . I don't know what's in my mind now . Seriously , I'm so confuse . Ai lian's advises , and his action . What should I do ?

Please : gimme some hint will you ?

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November

2011-11-27T03:15:00.001+08:00
Hi hi ! God damn long since I last blogged !

Sigh , November ; it's seems like it's not a good month either . Thought that at least it would be better then October , but nah , not really . Only slightly better .

Work's fine , working at traders hotel this few weeks . Kind of enjoy myself working though... People there are friendly . Kinda fun too.

Granny and grandpa came out to Singapore last Wednesday ,,went to visit them last Friday . Granny looks good , but grandpa , seems to becoming skinner compare to the previous time when I saw him. He had been smoking alot too granny and aunt keep telling to talk to grandpa , telling him to smoke lesser . Sigh... Small sister seems to be ill. Family getting sick now aday , but I can't do anything , I felt so sad and useless ): I just hope and pray hard that they will be fine & healthy.

Relationships with friends are fine I guess . Get back with Chlovelle ; talk things all. & it's all misunderstanding . & I apologize to her that previously I gossip bout her and stuffs . & now , we're back as friends (: had great fun with soapy , feli , cherelyn and jas too.

Hmm, our relationship ? Ain't that good I think. Quarrel yesterday and today . I don't know what's wrong with me . Suddenly felt so emotional. Guess my menses's coming to visit me already . I felt so hopeless last night , cried , but it seems more difficult to handle . Sudden urge to end everything , I guess I'm insane .

Thought that things will be fine today , yeah , it's fine in the beginning , after the movie , everything changed . I guess I really need a break . I just don't get it why in the first place , you know the risk . But still you do it , after doing it , you start to panic and start to think about all those stuffs to scare me , to find things to worry bout . Why ? Since we've done it , we should bare the consequence isn't it ?but why are you still panicking ? This isn't the first time already .. I just can't stand it . I'm seriously tired of this .

Even if we had it , don't worry , it's either I leave your life , I leave your world . Or I'll abort it & I'll leave you . Both choices , I'll still leave you. Cause I know , you can't be the one who will stand by me and accompany me through it .

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Hello November !

2011-11-03T22:32:00.001+08:00
Hello ! November ,

Today's 3rd of November eh ? Hah , & Guess what ?! I'm outta of my traineeship programme alr ! Which means , I don't have to go back KIMAGE HAIRDRESSING COMPANY ! A fuck dup company ! But as for school , sigh , abit wasted that I didn't complete . But at least , I know I really try my very best in school alr .

I know I did my part at work , just that I keep taking leave & mcs . Tsk , who ask this company to be so fuck up ! You don't respect me , & I guess I don't even have a need to fucking respect you uh? Hah , I'm so happy that finally I got my freedom ? Finally I'm free from this shit ! Working like a dog for this company for fucking 10months ! & seriously , I really really had enough. Facing them , I rather face a pig or a cow ! Fucking hell happy lah !

Was glad that mum didn't scold or shout at me . Was kinda surprise too ! But I know she's kind of disappointed that I didn't complete , but at least , I know she knows I've alrdy tried my very best enduring alrdy.

Yeah , loves keep asking me to look for part time jobs , hurrying me to find it ASAP . Seems like he's more anxious than me . But he's just caring for me , scared that I've not enough money to use now , as I don't have any basic pay anymore . But , trust me , when I rest , I'll still work .. Not everyday , but alternate . I cant stay at home sleeping all day , cause eventually , i'll need to get myself busy doing things . I know my own character.

Sigh , I don't know this month is it a good month for me . But I hope it will be uh. Hope that , I can earn more money than before as part time is easier to earn more cash !
So yah ! Jiayou shuchuan ! Jiayou Sharon! (;
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Love you .

2011-10-28T23:55:00.001+08:00

Things doesn't seems to be alright for us now . Either I'm de one who think too much , if not it's you who keep assuming that I'm unhappy or angry .
I don't know what happen to us & I don't know what causes us to become like this , before that we were so happy , so sweet . What's getting in between us & causing so much things to happened ?
I don't know why , you make me feel that you no longer the one whom I can talk to about my stuffs . You make me feel that whenever I tell you stuffs , you're either frustrated or annoyed . Maybe , I think too much . Just maybe . But you no longer are the one whom I will turn to,to talk about my troubles , my secrets , my everything . Cause I don't wanna annoy you anymore .
As for my face , I was born to have this lanjiao face ,I can't change , & I don't know how to . It's within me , it's my facial expression , my habit . I can't change . I tried , I did my best to . But it just couldn't . I don't know whether you've felt it anot . But I swear I try my best. But to no avail.
You told me you scared that I'll get tired & leave you . But , I'm de one who's more afraid than you . I lost my beloved father , I know the pain, I've gone through alot alot of pain,I don't wish to get that feeling back anymore . I don't wanna have another taste of losing someone I love. The pain's unbearable. I can tolerate , I can give in, I can endure , as long as this relationship goes on , im happy enough . I just hope that you won't get tired of me , won't feel that I'm annoying you , I'm a irritating you & stuffs.

I know guys need freedoms , I won't stick to you as much as I'm doing now . I'll let you have more space (: maybe I'll meet you twice a week ? Or thrice , the maximum . So that you have enough space & freedoms . I won't stop you from anything , anymore .

I do all this , its not because I wanna show temper . It's because , I feel that , maybe this way , we can get back like the past . I'm trying to go back to the past where we're so sweet so loving . It's unfair to you that I keep giving you attitude while you keep giving in. I see that change in you. Thanks very much. Gimme time to try , to be independent again. Just gimme more time. I love you , its really weird that you're the first guy , my feelings didn't fade despite so many things happen . You're the one that I truly love . I didn't tell you this , I just hope that one day , you'll know .

Hubby , thanks you so much , I shouldn't complain , I love you .

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Fuck myself , blame myself for the cause of all this !

2011-10-24T22:46:00.001+08:00

Things changed , you're not that boyfriend you used to be . Maybe it's my fault . I give you too much pressure , I nag at you too much , I scold you , I attitude you too much . All this too much makes you can't breathe , can't take it anymore right ? I'm so sorry .

Yeah , you're right , if I'm so afraid of quarrel why still get into relationship ? Why in the first place still learn to fall in love ? Blame it on my self ! For being to emotional , blame myself for falling in love so fast ! Seriously , fuck myself !

Should t get a boyfriend in the first place , why make yourself so embarrass ? Why torture yourself like this huh? Why must you lost your moat precious body so fast ? Why why why !

Why must I expect so much ? Why must I attitude so much ? Why why why ! Lim shu chuan why ! Why can't you learn your lesson ? Why can't you learn to control your temper ? Why can't you ? Don't blame others for feeling fade . You're the one who is in the wrong !

Don't blame others bit yourself ! You cause it ! Everything happens , it's because of you lim shu chuan ! Don't take things for granted ! Don't be foolish can anot ? Can you wake up wake ip wale up ? Just please fucking wake up !

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I love my life

2011-10-18T00:22:00.001+08:00

"每次吵完架，我们的关系
好像越变越近了。"

Yeap , it's 12.08am now ? & I'm like blogging instead of sleeping ! Having school tomorrow , & hurray ! I applied leave for 2 days , which means , wed & thurs I'm don't have to work ! Meeting my dear girls up tomorrow for sentosa trip ! Muahahaha ! Can't wait for it . Hehehehe !

151011 ;
Went out with my beloved hubby baby , first to catch a movie at tiong ; Real Steel ! My god , it's nice (Y) . That small boy's so cute & his eyes are just so... Beautiful ! After that went Bugis street to look for my bikini ! & back to bugis junction for seoul garden. Enjoy the day so much with him eh ! Kekeke , our monthly date , to celebrate our belated 17 th ! <3 love him ttm !

Hmmm, guess , I shouldn't complain that my life sucks , at least I got friends who's real enough & my families , eventhough , I quarrel with my mum kinda often , but at least she cares for me , she loves me . & my beloved baby boy ! We quarrel , yes we did . But tell me , which couple doesn't quarrel ? I bet 10 out of 9 does. But at least , we quarrel , we apologies , we admit our fault our wrong , & we kiss and make up. Seriously , I learn alot from him & I can say it out loud that , at least , I've become more mature then previous . I know how to think before I do .

& I thank hubby tan , for his hardwork , for his love & care . I know that we still quarrel & fight because of small matter , but least , it's isn't that often anymore . & I love him , more then anyone else . & my family , his family too ! & my real friends , (:

I'm happy with my life currently, compared to the past !

Hubby tan , thank you so much , I love you .

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Fuck up life I have !

2011-10-13T22:10:00.001+08:00
Do you know , I'm tired of trying ? I'm tired of putting my very best in everything . But no one saw it , & start point fingers at me , jeering at me ? I'm so tired of life , infect , I felt like giving up you know !

Mum doesn't even support what ive done , trying my very best to show her that I can. Proving to her that i can , but she saw nothing , keep putting wet blanket On me . It's hurts inside , but so ? She doesn't even care . & I don't even bother to voice it out .

Boyf ? Nah ....

Im just so tired , god damn hell tired . Can I just end now ? End this fucking fuck dup life ? Can I can I ? tsk....

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Human being ?

2011-10-13T22:00:00.001+08:00

为什么人与人之间、这么难相处？感觉到好像很难去了解一个人。很难跟他们沟通。

Sigh , why does it felt so difficult to communicate with human ? So difficult to understand them , felt that everything is just so unreasonable .
Caring for someone , they'll treat it as if they got motives , they're simply just be sarcastic , being kaypo . I really don't understand .

I thought that you might understand me, but I was wrong , even you misunderstood me. Being concern , caring , you thought that I'm just being sarcastic , trying to make you feel bad ; guilty . Sigh.... I really don't know how to show my care for you.
This few days , either on the phone, or when I meet you, whenever I'm talking to you or complaining to you , you just gimme kind of "I don't give a shit ; just shut up , you're annoying" that kind of expression & tone. Sigh , why things become like this? What did I done wrong again? Because of you , I tried to change myself to be better . I tried to give in , endure everything . but what I get is all this ? Yeah , sometimes you told me that you will treat me better , but words are just words , no action taken , words means nothing .
Day by day , times goes by , I don't know what we'll become. I'm so tired , paranoid , being left alone . I don't know what I'm thinking again. I'm just afraid of getting hurt . You told me that if I break your heart the pain would be 10000x of "hers" . But have ever thought of me ? I gave you me ! Heart , everything ! Who's gonna be more hurtfull ? Who's gonna get more pain !

I'm just simply plain tired of love alr ! I don't wanna get into relationship , I don't wanna fall in love again. I don't want anything , I just Want my life to go back to where it had started , no relationship , no pain , nothing . I don't need anyone to understand me . From the day daddy passed away , I shouldn't expect any one else would understand . I'm tired . Cried enough, hurt enough. No more all this for me please ?

Thought that you would be different , really different . But I was wrong . Always wrong in my judgement . Always wrong & it's always my fucking fault . I miss you everytime we quarrel, those heart pain, makes my hand felt very pain too . Do you know that ? I guess you don't , you'll never know.

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Happy 17th my dearest hubby<3

2011-10-09T23:19:00.001+08:00

Hmmm,in 1 more hours time , it's gonna be our 17th. I know for this 1year 5months, alot of things happened , happy , joy , unhappiness , quarreled , fun & etc . I know we both had been quarreling & so on . But at least we manage to patch up, kiss & made up. I know that , tolerating my temper , my stubborn attitude isn't that easy , I know that sometimes you don't even know what I'm thinking & so on. Hmmm, sometimes , I can't read your mind too , I don't know what you're thinking & that leads us to quarrel , but baby , after all this we've been through , we loved each other more isn't it ?

Our love became stronger & we both change to be better isn't it ? I'm really thankful to all those things which you've done for me , like my birthday , you planned everything , you prepared everything just for me . But becAuse of your course it ruined everything of your planned , but still im so touched that at least you made the effort to surprise me on my birthday. I'm happy & touched enough .

Whenever things happened , you'll always be the one who stand by me , cheer me up , help me through , eventhough sometimes might leads us to quarrel , I know that you actually care for me , worry for me so much . Sigh , I know this year , I've started this course , internship program, everything was so stress up for me , my attitude , my temper totally changed & make you feel so unbearable at times , you swallow it , & stand in my shoes , always give in to me.

Hubby , thanks for your support , thanks for being the one who stood by me , cheering me & showering your love & care to me . I know im still abit hot temper at times , but gimme somemore time , I'll change to be a better one , for you & for me . I love you ! & Remember what you've promised me ! No broken promises from you eh! Muackssss !

谢谢你老公，因为有你，因为是你，让我知道幸福是什么样的滋味。因为有你的爱，我变得根家坚强。我爱你！

Thank you hubby , because of you & it's you , who make me realize that how sweet happiness can be.& because of your love , I learn to become stronger overcoming everything . I love you , I'm so fortunate to have a good boyfriend , a good hubby like you .love you much golden monkey hubby , my dearest love , my cutest boy , my sweetest boyfriend ! Muackssss <3

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Location:Jalan Bukit Merah,,Singapore

2011-09-23T23:55:00.001+08:00

Aww , it's Friday today & I'm
homed like so freaking early ?
Sigh , because loves gotta work tomorrow & the next day too . Like shag only , tsk ! His stupid encik snatch him away from me!I'm suppose to have him on weekends !

My supervisor s.u.c.k.s ! I hate her to the core ! 60plus more days before my contract ends & when it does , I'm gonna show them my two not very long
Middle finger & maybe I shall let them suck it too ? == piss off much !

Holiday for 2 weeks , no school for this week plus next week, BEO test straight When we get back to class .

Kay ! I'm fucking hell bored! -.- I realize i've been spouting vulgarities more often now ? Hmmm, ain't really a good thing, needa watch what's coming out from my mouth ! Anyway , September's coming to an end ! Thanks god , i can't wait for 2012 ! Please come fast will you ?

Hahs, loves being soo damn sweet now adays , make me felt sooo , awww ... Mushyyy lah ! Muahahaha , I love him lots you know ? I wonder if I lost this happy pill of mine , will I be able to smile again? Like I used to? He brightens up my moody , gloomy day , make me feel so sweet , give me kiss & hug when I needed most . & He got ways to make me angry & make me smile in 3 seconds ? Aint this cute guy lovely ? I just love him so hell much !

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2011-09-19T10:48:00.001+08:00
Sigh , weekend passed so fast like no body's business . I haven even enjoy enough uh ! God damn it . But at least I enjoy this weekend really really much ! Hah, went dating with cute boy in friday , after work. He purposely apply half day just for me,to buy movie ticket ! Touched much ! Went Bugis walk walk , had our dinner at Sarpino ! So big portion , I had 2 1/2 & felt god damn full already , poor cute boy , he finished up 5 pieces ! Power much right ? Hahaha .

Johnny English reborn was awesome ! Funny ttm !  laugh like hell throughout the whole movie ! And after that homed ! Too tired already.

Went chu sai with them yesterday . After that back to guan relax and watch them played mahjong . Homed with cute boy , ate dinner at 78 . Rest and homed !

Hah , went Safra today with xin Cheng clique . Chit chatted with cherelyn ! Haha , watched them played bowling like funny only . Back to cute boys home to have dinner & celebrate his Sis bf birthday! & I'm back home now!

Kinda miss him so much , if this goes on , how wonderful can we be ? I'm seriously felt so blessed that I have him in my life now . Eventhough we quarrel at times , we say nasty things , but at least we both know that we loved each other deeply isn't it ? No couples won't quarrel, but one have to give in . Things takes two hands to clap. Both have to work out together . And I'm thankfull that I've him . Thanks you hubby !

Sigh , this week hubby's gotta work during weekend too , sad much lah ! Hais....can I acc him too ? Tsk!

2011-09-17T15:11:00.000+08:00
Yeap Yeap !

IM back for my dead blog ! & yes , it's September of 2011 ! This Year coming to the end soon! & well , i've been busy on studies , attachments! & yeah , I'm getting lazier ! In that shitty company , I cant stand any longer ! I just wish that the stupid contract Fucking come to an end real soon ! MYGOSH ! & oh well , Have been Taking Leave on & off . But who cares ? at Least i done my job . Hmmm , yeah , alot of things happened . But i dont really give a damn you know ? i dont care whatever you people say , you think i give a fuck ? oh well , in the past yes , but now , NO! i wouldn't be bother to whatever your are saying , yeah , karma is bitch , i just that it'll strike you in your face you know?Tsk ! Things takes 2 hands to clap , by pushing the fault , the blames to me , ain't getting you to any better . I keep quiet , doesn't mean that i agree to whatever you all are saying , it just means that i dont really give a shit about it ? Hah ! I wanna enjoy my life now , I dont wanna be bothered by whatever things that gonna bring me down , & hell no ! i wont get affected by those childish things alright ? & grow up for god sake ! Tsk , I admit i've done wrong , so what ? at least i realise , & i swear i've change for the better , i dont have to show out , as long as i know it myself , it's good enough.Wanna bitch about me , Go ahead , As i've said , Karma's a bitch , & she'll do her job! Hah , Go ahead & bitch somemore , i wont fucking give a shit ! you don't worth me crying or getting angry because you ain't that important to me now , You once was , but not anymore (:

我爱你，这是我想告诉你的。

2011-09-02T23:08:00.001+08:00

如果我总缠着你，
请不要说我不乖..
请不要对我生气..

因为我真的很珍惜和你的每分每秒，
哪怕明明相隔两地，哪怕只是在电话中相聚..

因为在乎每一次小小意义上的分离..

如果我不会总缠着你，请不要以为我舍得和你说再见了，
你不懂我那一瞬间的失落，是多么想伸出手去抓住你..

你要明白正是为了爱，才悄悄的收起对你的依赖..

也许有一天我们都会埋怨..
也许有一天我们都会犯错..
也许有一天我们都会忽视今天的诺言..
也许有一天我们也会吵架..

我们来做个约定好吗？

约好即使吵架也不可以不接听彼此的电话，
约好即使吵架也不可以不好好照顾自己，
约好即使吵架也不可以轻易说分手，
约好即使吵架也不可以伤害自己，
约好即使吵架也不可以错过了..

约好，吵架的时候记得告诉自己：
错误是短暂的..
错过却是永远遗憾的..

爱情，有时候很脆弱，脆弱到容不下一点点沙。
爱情，有时候很顽强，顽强到什么也分不开相爱的人。

如果有一天，我们不再任性的不理会一切..
如果有一天，我们不再要求时时都粘在一起..
如果有一天，我们不再傻傻的看着对方微笑..
如果有一天，我们不再不理会柴米油盐..
如果有一天，我们不再是任性的两个小孩..
如果有一天，我们习惯了彼此埋怨..

请不要说分手..
因为这一天更应该说：
“我们在一起.. 结婚，
让我照顾你一辈子..”

formspring.me

2011-08-01T20:20:00.001+08:00
Ask me anything http://formspring.me/thunlovedbitch

2011-07-28T13:52:00.002+08:00

Work Work Work !
why must i work ?
i guesss , i'm not really ***** at all ?
Argh.......i'm Kinda piss right now ?

I Hate Flu , But I Love You !

2011-07-26T20:22:00.001+08:00

"我爱你"

Back from school !!

Flu the whole day ! Hate the feeling of having flu man ! Had Pizza end of the class , Haslina's treat (:

Meet up with loves after school , suppose to go his house , end up i went home , sick till buey tahan.
I'm soo sorry , make you come down wait for me & go home by yourself really sorry .

Just went back to my family doc to get flu medicine ! I swear i won't take any other medicine anymore-'- Yesterday , because i drink 10mls of coughing syrup given by polyclinic , i couldn't sleep at all man ! Damn , slept for a 3 hours ? or 4 ? & i've gotta wake up for school ! Drank 2.5 cans of redbull just to keep me up in class . & that freaking flu , make me couldn't rest in class .): Zzzzz...Kay , enough of complaining ! & i'll update as soon as i can ^^

i thought that things will be better , but i guess i'm wrong. Zzzz..maybe i think too much , maybe because you're also tired of quarreling thus , you're trying to give in as much as you can . as i know i'm still giving attitude on & off . Showing my princess temper again at times . Yeah , i know we both are trying very hard to avoid quarrels , avoid cold wars , trying to maintain this relationship , i know it's hard. Gimme more time alright ? i'll really give my best , change my bad , & become better , can you wait for me ?can you wait for me to grow up too ? I'm still not really that mature , please forgive alright ? Hubby , i know it's really hard for you , i know things takes two hands to clap , i know you're trying very hard , i know i've let you down too, but i'll give my best alright , i know it's very tiring , but please hold on as long as you still love me , cause i'll keep trying my best alright , i love you , Hubby 我爱你 .

2011-07-25T16:29:00.003+08:00

" i love you "

Hahs ! Changed my blogskins (Y)

Mc's for today , Kinda sick );
I'm rotting at home now..

Tomorrow school ! Shiok max , no need to work . Tired of working ! For for the sake of the contract & my studies , I've gotta endure ! Jiayou !!!!! Oh yeah , National Day's coming , meaning i don't have to work ! ^^ There's gonna have 2 public holiday next month ! Can't wait for it . Seriously , i'm Fucking sick & tired of working in a place with i don't like , have no interest in it . So damn Lifeless ... Just gonna tahan for this freaking 6 more months , just 6more months will do. & i'm gonna -'- this company & tell them Goodbye !

where else for others , i don't give a shit or give a damn bout it , have too much of things on me no more time to care on other stuffs.So yeah ! i'm gonna mind my own business & shut the fuck up (; to prevent more troubles ... fucking tired of it already !!

Yupps , that's all .

I'll update Soooonnnnn (;

Golden Monkey Hubby , Cute Boy , Darling , Laogong , I love you ! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
How Sweet & cute can you be ? Love you much & i miss youuuuu....

`There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will.
`Loving someone takes courage: fearing it could end at any moment and yet having faith it will last forever.
`Relationship needs two amazing person; one who can trust & another who can understand.

That's when i love you ♥

2011-07-21T20:00:00.003+08:00
Heyyo ,

I thought July things would be better for me , But i guess , things still not going on very well. Things between Me & Mr Tan are fine now . We're getting better & better i guess ?

Went to Jacob's Chalet ! Kinda Enjoying , Chit Chatting & more Stuffs. First time Going to Wild Wild Wet ! shiok max ! Especially with My Dearest Mr Tan .♥

Argh ..... Nothing Much to elaborate . That's all bah

♥
On that night , in the toilet when i was crying so hard , you keep wiping away my tears . Kiss me & hugged me . I was so damn touched . But as you took the ring off my hand , & kneel Down on the floor with one leg . I was kinda surprise . you told me that you long ago wanted to tell me , but you didn't get the chance to . but now , you got it . I can never forget , that you asked me that am i willing to be with you forever . No matter what happens, My tears came out even faster . & i nodded my head . you held my hands & wear the ring not on my middle finger but on the ring finger . I was really touched.

After that your dad talk to me , & he told me alot of stuffs , i was hell touched . He said that he will always be supporting me , & he knows that how i wish i still have a father who still can talk to me like him .At first , i didn't cry , but after this sentence , i can't hold back my tears , he told me not to cry , gimme a pat on my shoulder & head . Like a father comforting his child . How i wish i can hug him like how i can hug my father.& i can never forget was , when i told him "see you tomorrow " his replied was " not only see you tomorrow , But see you forever "

That day , was the most memorable day i can never forget , with you Tan Ying Rong , Your promise of 5 Years . & your dad , with all those words which he've said that touched me ! i'll & i can never forget ! 16.07.2011 ♥
♥

2011-06-27T19:37:00.002+08:00
Hey ! i'm back !

Things ain't going smoothly for me i guess ? I'm feeling soo tired now & then .
don't really have the mood to post so yah ! just a short & simple post ,

We're both drifting apart now , no text nor calls that often . Maybe i can understand it's because your phone bills & you're short of money & doesn't wanna spent anyhow . i should understand . & i should understand . Nah,maybe i think too much,Just maybe i think too much . I really don't wanna think anymore , i don't wanna think , stop thinking ! YEAH , i should !

If it's mine , no matter how i push away , you're still mine , you'll still come back . if you're not mine , I'll can't do much , i only can let you go . find your own happiness .

What do you have that you cannot live without?

2011-06-15T21:35:00.003+08:00

my family , my boyfriend , friends & phone !
Ask me anything

Why must you love someone enough to let them go?

2011-06-15T21:35:00.001+08:00

Cause that's the only reason you can give yourself to let them go willingly. because of the one you loves' happiness.
Ask me anything

What makes you feel secure?

2011-06-15T21:29:00.001+08:00

with my boyfriend around , staying by myside & hugging me tightly!
Ask me anything

2011-06-15T20:15:00.003+08:00

" I Miss Them , My love♥ "

kinda long since i bloggged . This blog is dead once again .
But i'm gonna make it alive now ~ woots !I'm gonna post at least once a month as i don't really have the time now . i'm quite active in twitter (: So you can follow me eh! https://twitter.com/#!/thunlovedbitch (:

Things are going up & down for me . Sometimes smooth Sometimes really bad . Had been working like a dog for 5 months plus . Tired max ! i just hoope this attachment ends quickly ! Decided to take O's next year & driving license as love told me to .

Met up with Baby & beloved for kbox On monday & last monday with beloved friend Darren & his brother . (forgot his name ;B )

Anyway , I gonna look for part time jobs ! can't survive with that peanut pay from that kimage company . 500 plus or less a month , half my pay is gone for paying that phone bill . Gosh , last month 192 bucks ! Can you imagine that ?! Damn ...

Anyway , I've been to Zirca last month , or last last month ? i forgot . That's the first time i step into a club ! Born for 17 years , & just stepped into Club at the age of 17?! Gaaa ... Soapy brought me there . Free entry , the music was niceeee , but those jerks out there Sucks ! They can lick my foot eh ! Overall was just so so ! didn't really enjoyed . I prefer pubs then clubs , maybe i went just too much pubs then clubs . (: All because of love! I first sstep into pubs is with him alright ! <: I'm kinda addicted to drinking. I feel like drinking you know ? Nah , stop talking bout that . Gosh ! no more drinking for me ~

Mum's gone to Korea & Shanghai ! Bought some stuffs for me , a jacket , a pair of shoe, a jumper & a bracelet ! Love her much <3 Baby came to ton at my house , love came too ^^ Skip a few days of work ! Opps :p , hope that mummy & uncle won't take a look at my bloggy !

& yeap , now's school holiday , but still , i gotta work ! like a dog man ! Damn , I'm tired you know ! just wish to take a rest from all this . & sleep sleep sleep ! & mostly i miss my classmates ! i miss their craps , miss our lecturer ! Gosh ~ how i wish i'm still a student ): Zzzzz....

Hmmm , anyway i'm done with this blog ! i hope this bloggy wont be dead again eh ! hahaaaa ...
Ohyah ,i almost forgot my egg! i'm boiling my 4 lil eggs , to go with my bread for tomorrow's breakfast ! gonna save money ! broke broke broke ! seriously , i'm all so broke now ! ): I need a part time jobs asap ! & so does love ! Muahahahaa , i miss him , 3 days since i met him , still gonna wait till friday , as i'm tired , i wanna a early night rest ! but it seems impossible you know . The lappy & the tv's tempting me ~ how can i go to bed early ! Haiyoooo ....(if love saw this , i gonna get scolded ! damn , alright , i'm going to bed sooooooooooooooon >: ! Oppps :B )

Tomorrow that old witch's coming back to work , SHAG ! The office is gonna be full of toxic tomorrow & Friday ): God bless & save me please !
Hais , I'll post more then ! Goodnights ! <3

Hubby you know what?You take my breath away, with everything you say!♥Every time I say "I love you" for no reason, it's because I just fell deeper in love with you,Mr Tan , right at that moment ! I miss You ! ♥

KATY PERRY- FIREWORK (APPLE STORE)

2011-05-14T12:47:00.000+08:00

Seriously , LMFAO !

2011-05-09T20:34:00.002+08:00
Went to Universal Studio Again today (: fun ttm as i gotta play the roller coaster ! fun like hell only.
Went to have Dinner yesterday At Ah Yat Seafood Restaurant. after that went to watch soccer match at safra .
back before that,went bugis & shopped ! (;

have been a good girl this month , didn't apply any leave as there's lots of holiday yeah ! ^^
anyway , i've got nothing much more to update.kinda forgot what i've done.So yah ...
next week public holiday again (Y)

tomorrow's our 1 year anniversary.we've just quarrels today.guess our 1 year just gone by like this.
i'm at fault ! i'm at fault , wrong by didn't know how to plan my schedule properly.yeah,it's my effing fault ! i'm use to it anyway.

2011-04-25T19:23:00.003+08:00

" i l♥ve them ♥"

hehs,since effing long i last posted .

things are going quite alright,even thought there's pile of work to be done , stress , & some quarrels.everything are still going on well.

watched 2 movie this month.Scream 4 & Qian Nv You Hun . Scream 4's freaking me out.i'm scared of going home alone late at night.& gotta ask loves or his sis to send me up.Afraid of taking the lift alone.Darn,should have prepared mentally when i'm gonna watch it.Hais,poor loves.); anyway went to Pasir Ris to meet loves's classmate,last week.as they're having BBQ~after that took bus 5 home & cab to love's house.

went to love cousin's pub on Saturday.As she just open two weeks ago?yeah...drink a bit.& wanted to go titanium ; sad , reached there but couldn't get it.My face too Gin Na already.Then went back to love's house.& home after that.

Today didn't went to work.guess i'm too lazy & help mummy out on something.actually wanted to go to Rivervale there to do my passport.but mummy suddenly changed her mind.Boss called her in the afternoon, telling her i've been taking too many Mc & leaves.Shagged ! But lucky thing is,tomorrow i'm going back to school.Therefore i don't need to see her face.(Y) Wednesday,i gotta pray nothing's gonna happened.

Zzzz .... i gotta urged to drink again); how ?! okays ! must stop all this.

thanks for showing the "importance" i'm to you.kays !

2011-04-10T17:47:00.004+08:00
thanks for showing me how "important" i am to you alright.
i bet you're sleeping right now. you didn't even give me a text , a call to ask where am i.i called caiyuting , she came rushing down.she doesn't mind spending her time for me.she wanted to go bugis.but because of me,she came down to find me.
i went purmei alone just now.she was fucking worry that i'll do foolish things, how bout you?what were you doing then?
it's raining , she called me three times.she's at bugis , but she's worrying bout me.how bout you ?
thanks for showing me how important i'm to you kays.thanks for that.how foolish for me to cry like a fool at purmei.people walking by watching.fuck myself for that.since i'm nothing , fine then.

today is our 11 months.did you realise it ? i doubt you did, thanks for the present i gave myself for today!

2011-04-09T11:27:00.003+08:00

"愛得太真太容易讓自己犧牲太容易讓自己沉淪,太容易不顧一切滿是傷痕"

helllloooooooo !

bloggin blogging blogging (: (Y)

Mc for 5 days, kanna refer to SGH to see specialist.but when i went there all they do was to shine light at my eyes.after that they told me they'll book an appointment for me to see the specialist.-.-
waste my time.spent 90 bucks on that.sad maxx ! and for that 5 days,stayed at home for the first days.second day went out , third day went out fourth and fifth also! see how "good girl" i am!

but now , my eyes's kinda better already.school's starting soon.and i can't wait for that.at least i gotta see my classmate.rather then staying at office.
seriously,working life isn't easy.isn't that fun as i thought.much more complicated, how i wish i was still a kid.no troubles,enjoyable lifes.but sad,time couldn't rewind.wishes wouldn't come true !

that's all bah, kinda moodless to blog and stuff ! follow me on twitter eh! (: i'm more active now on twitter ^^.

我爱你♥

2011-03-29T20:56:00.003+08:00

"给我一个理由忘记，那么爱我的你。给我一个理由放弃，当时做的决定 "
short-form for this long sentence = 我爱你 ♥!

i'm back ! since hell long i blogged !

miss me not peeps ? hah ! i bet you did , especially those who always stalks my bloggy ! ^^
work has been fine , except ! I'M HAVING SORE-EYES ! & it's killing me seriously . had it for almost 5 days ! see how long it can last ! even love bite didn't last so long luh ! ass -.-
MC on last monday as i'm having painfull stomache, MC again on friday this freaking sore eyes came and disturb me! half day for yesterday , cause it's still not recover yet & half day for today. zzzz , this freaking sore eyes make me take so many mc & waste my money ! went to see two doctors and yet still not recovering . what on earth have i done to deserve this ??? );

anyway , went back cck ite to have lesson! ANG's lesson sucks ttm ! boring & she never fails to nag at us ! end lesson at 12,slacked around with sophy and a few classmates (: had fun talking chit chat-ing and gossiping (Y) hahas ! then off to look for aunt & grandparents (: they just came out from malaysia . so went to visit them (Y) shop shop at northpoint & mummum ! aunt bought me a shirt (: love her much (despite me telling her no need to buy,she still insist of buying at least one for me -.- ) then went back to her house ! Both of my cousin came back from school , and there they are.big one's playing games (BlackShot some more! Akemi's favourite ) ,while small one at there guailan me (sibei buey tahan him de ley! he never fails to talk back to me de ^'^ damn him )
after awhile,accompany aunt to NTUC to do some grocery shopping as her big son's sick . on the way back eyes becomes real swollen.so after being persuaded by aunt and grandma , went home straight ! now teaching siblings study ! but seriously,teach them just an hour, i don't know can vomit how much blood ! i think later i need to refill already.if not i lose too much blood & pass away! i still want give birth and get married de uh!

precious boy at home enjoying huh! i just miss him so much alright<3

kays , i'm going to bed now ! nights nights (: post again ! be patient eh !

334th post

2011-03-12T16:58:00.004+08:00

" i love them "

this is my 334th post for the pass 4 years . start posting/blogging when i'm like in sec 2 ? daily life , things happened , sad or happy . all in this blog . look at all those post , when i first started posting . i laughed ! so funny only , childish and more stuffs .

hmmm , anyway . this week , kinda relax . felt that time really flies . meet up with armyboy almost everyday (: i just love him much . met up with baby , beloved & darling on thursday . went back BMSS to take our N'level cert . but in the end , i got it back . testimonial's kinda short )': all bout my CCA & sports i participate in school and involvement in CIP programme . zzzzzzzz .......
before that , went to CCK school for my Customer Service test . shag ttm , sure flung de ! cause my mind went blank when i look at the test paper . all those notes i studied all gone )': .yesterday received an email from my lecturer , telling me i fail my OSA ! i was like WTF ?! zzzz , anyway , retested on tuesday . gotta try harder this time ! FML -.-

i miss my grandma , grandpa and my aunt !

anyway that's all bah !

updated my tumblr ! (: loves !

your words hurt , freaking hurt .sorry it's my fault !

2011-03-05T13:49:00.002+08:00
i know i shouldn't have give you my freaking attitude , i know i shouldn't have give you faces , shouldn't have make you tolerate every shit of me . shouldn't have stop you from playing , shouldn't stop you from showing your character . i know i'm at fault . sorry to have made you being said and misunderstand by your parents and sister . i'm sorry . but , all i can say , is that , i'm very happy that your family treat me as one of theirs , i'm so gald to have know them , after daddy pass away , i'm so happy that i found another one as my daddy , i long ago wanted to have elder sister and brother. thanks for introducing your family members to me. give me happiness and more . thanks for that . maybe i'm not suitable enough for you , maybe i can't give you the happiness you want . i've change , i know . change to unreasonable , un-tole-ratable , everytime show attitude , everytime give you faces . maybe you're right , i can't tolerate your character . i'm sorry to let you feel that i take you for granted , sorry . i didn't mean to . but guess , sometimes , my tone and expression make you feel uncomfortable . i'm sorry . i know i'm always giving people attitude or faces . sorry people . from now on i wont say anything , i wont show faces already . sorry . i'll change .

sorry to make you feel that way , if this is to end , i'll follow . yeah , you've done alot for me . i appreciate alot . maybe i let you feeel that i'm actually just toying you . sorry , but i'm not.seriously, dont you even understand my feeling for you now already?

sorry bah , my fault . i accept it .

happy 17th to me !♥

2011-02-25T09:20:00.006+08:00

" eternity = you and me ; sweet romance ♥! "

heyyo !! i'm to my bloggy (:

working working is my everyday routine now ! gosh , what to do ! hais ....
went to see doctor yesterday uh ! cause my hand swollen , and it's very itchy ! today's off ! so yah . relaxing at home !guess what ?! i'm one year older today ! was born in a fabulous month ! i love it ! hehs, that's all bah (: photo's will do the talking !

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when the clock struck 12 , i'm one year older ! everything will start changing , my life , my journey ! all i wish for is my family are happy everyday , lesser quarrels going on , more warmth surrounding . the second one is my love will last till eternity! with sadness and happiness , i still wish that iy would always be the same guy , which is my armyboy to be by myside ! the last one , i will keep it to myself ! this year , would my birthday be a special one for me ?! i hope so !

2011-02-19T12:03:00.005+08:00

" love come because there's fate , couples get together because there's love "

oh my gosh , i'm so excited and so happy . this month is seriously a G-R-E-A-T month alright !! couples getting married , valentines day & more !

my 9th monthsary , valentines & yesterday , hubby's second sis wedding ! tomorrow's hubby's big sis ROM ! my gosh , i'm so honor that i'm born in this month ! full of love & romance !

yesterday was very fun .photo's upload on facebook !oh , when will this happen to me ? hahhas , just kidding . wish that all couples last long till the end♥ !

that's all bah <3>
meeting hubby , soapy and johnny later ^^

2011-02-13T12:06:00.005+08:00

" he his my one and only lovely armyboy friend i have "

hey hey hey , i'm back to my lovely bloggy (:
have been a few weeks since i posted ah , cause too busy working and alot of stuffs are going on .

celebrated chinese new year with armyboy and his family . went to sophina's and johnny's house too . ^^
armyboy's have a big family . full of joy , i'm so happy too alright . gamble and jokes around . won quite alot uh . watch a few movies too , shaolin and home going .
went to pasir ris , tampines and bedok yesterday . alot of people there (: really have alot of funa nd laughters around . went back his house . played abit of mahjiong and homed at around 2plus .

meeting armyboy later (:

tomorrow's valentines . who's celebrating and who's not ? hais , i dont even know whether i can celebrate anot luh . anyway HAPPY VALENTINE DAY (:

happy 9th monthsary armyboy ,
time really past so fast loh , remember that time at purmei hilltop there , i once told you before i wont fall for you , i wont like or even love you . but now ? hahahas , fate brought us together right ? you told me that actually when you saw me the first time , you already have a weird feeling towards me . and a few times when i'm sad and cry , you told me that you will feel sad too . hehehes , i miss those times too uh . but now you are happy and as sweet right ? thanks for those comfort and cheering when i'm really sad . i know that at times , i will give you my piss off attitude .especially when i'm tired and stress . i'm sorry alright , you know i dont mean it . thanks for the tolerance for me . i will try my really really best to change . i promise . armyboy give me time okays (:
remember the promise hor , 25 years old uh !! dont forget ah .
you might not be my first , but you will be my last and only one alright . make me fall so deep , make me feeel like i'mma princess , give me secure and being protected .thanks so much okays . whatever you've done for me , will always be kept inside , deep down in my heart. i really appreciate alot . touched by your words and stuff . thanks once again for appearing in my life . without you , i can't get out of the past . thanks , iloveyou armyboy .
HAPPY 9TH MONTHSARY (:

♥iloveyou , armyboy !

2011-01-29T12:11:00.003+08:00

" after and before , any difference ? "

hey ! i'm so so so happy (:
i rebond my hair & i got ang bao from my company & chinesse new year is coming ! my birthday and valentine and our 9th monthsary also ^^

hehehs , happy . and next week i no need go to work leh ! but hor , still need go to school . kays lah ! post till here. will update blog after CNY (:

LASTLY ! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL (:
hope you get lots of angbao uh ! and goodlucks for the year^^

2011-01-25T19:58:00.002+08:00
finally today i'm a good girl , stay at home after finished school . quite tired uh ! woke up at 6plus today , went to cck , on the way saw khuluq , waited for sophina and went to school together .
ened at 5plus 6 today , now home relax-ing ?!

hahs, yesterday work half day . went home cause wasn't feeling quite well . at night , met up with sweety and beloved for dinner at queensway . after dinner went heights , and back to home !

tomorrow gotta work uh ! chinese new year's coming , which means , valentine day and my birthday coming ! i'm happy (:

that's all bah ^^

i feel that everything's is going wrong again , am i thinking too much . or what ? the feeling of losing you is very strong now ! i hope things are alright . maybe i think too much , maybe because you are in army and therefore gotta concentrate on it . maybe is because you're having a test to pass . maybe you are having too much stress . maybe ... maybe ...

i hope that everything's gonna be okay one day . maybe eveyrthing's gonna change back to normal one day , lim shu chuan ! stop having negative thoughts!

iloveyou , my dearest monkey

2011-01-22T11:29:00.002+08:00

" ♥ "

finally i can have a good rest , working and studying pass 5 days ! woke up damn early in the morning , 7 am ! went to office and chiong all my work ! paper work , keying data into files & etc.

but still , i woke up early today . can't sleep back . i'm use to waking up early already i guess . but timing of my sleep isn't really fix . hais , my whole body ache ! my brain aches too !
armyboy fetch came to fetch me on the first day of my work . sweety came two days too . went tiong to slack and went safra to relax . i miss my beloved too ! but our schedule machiam very packed luh . shag ttm! anyway that's all bah .

i miss my armyboy alot alot . yesterday was on the phone with this cute lil boy , and guess what , he makes me felt so touch by something .

你让我爱你爱得很深♥

happy 19 birthday chubby boy!

2011-01-15T11:05:00.005+08:00

" MY CHUBBY BOY BIRTHDAY (; "

yeah ! finally , last week of slacking ! i'm starting to study/work already ! gosh , felt so excited now !!
anyway , it's gonna be a busy year this year , so yah ! gotta cut short slacking and playing time )':

celebrated my precious hubby's birthday , wanted to surprise him , but in the end , plan abit ruin . but still can say it's a successful one . :) all thanks to beloved and sweetie ! pei me all the way , despite you're tired after school , you still came to accompany me . really thanks alot uh ! went to eat steamboat with hubby , johnny , sophina & soon huat . after that went k-box to meet the others . drank , play , sing and laughs ! really have alot of fun , but most importantly is hubby , enjoyed himself and is happy !

went bugis yesterday with beloved , meet her after her school , and went bugis street walk . bought some clothes and she bought a shirt for shootmepls ! hubby , came to meet me , and we went home together (: home-d at 11plus .

later gonna work with sweetie ! shag max )': tomorrow working at NYDC . both till 11pm . hmmm , this one week of holiday for hubby , makes me feel so happy , but , still he gotta go back already )': monday ; he's back to camp again. hais ! anyway , thats all bahs ! chinese new year arriving . i'm so excited !

HUBBY :

happy birthday to you ,
happy birthday to you ,
happy birthday to monkey ,
happy birthday to you !

happy birthday monkey ! hope that the surprise i "organise " for you , you will like it . zzz , can't say it's a surprise , cause you sort of already know the cake liao ! >.<
but it's still a successful one (: hahs , just wanna tell you , that iloveyou more then anything else . eventhough we quarrel and stuffs , but in the end , we get back together when we cool down . sorry have been said . hubby , thanks for giving in okays . hope you enjoy this birthday celebration alright! 19 years old liao hor ! must be mature enough liao . but dont become LKK hor. hmmm , and i hope that , your 20th , 21st and on and on , i'm the one who pei-ed you celebrate and organised you birthday ! loveeeeeee

2011-01-05T12:41:00.003+08:00

" a new year , a new start "

gosh, i'm so headache about ITE !! seriously , whats wrong with ite school sia ? give us the code for the course to let us choose . we chose , but what we get is nothing but waiting. dont know still gotta wait how long luh . damn )':

anyway , currently still working at NYDC ! happy working there . the only thing i'm stress about is only the stupid ite !! hais , wish that i have some luck ! mummy say she's accompanying me to dover ite headquater and ask !!! hope i can get alright ! /:

hubby's having one week "holiday" next week . i'm oh so damn happy alright <3>

2011-01-01T12:16:00.002+08:00
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE !!

hmmm , a new year , a new starting , a fresh new beginning . yesterday went to marina to watch fireworks . the fireworks is nice , beautiful . didn't get to take pics . sigh , things are getting worst . seriously , i dont know what to do already . thats all bahs !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOONG WENYI ,

friends together for 9years . eventhough now , we're not as close like last time , but we still catch up often and talk or chat uh . thanks for being there for me when i'm down . thanks for giving me those advice which sometimes its makes me feel so much better . i remember when i'm in sec1 or sec2 we use to go each other place right ? after school , during one of the june holidays , we went up to your house and bake cookie , with michelle and pohchai . while pohchai cook us pasta ! and we always go training together and library . thanks you so much alright . i hope that this year , you succeed in everything alright , hope you get a good result and get to the courses you want alright ! i hope we still continue to meet up . 17years old liao . jiayou okay ! <3>

jingle bell jingle bell jingle all the way ! ♥

2010-12-26T11:36:00.004+08:00

" first christmas celebration with hubby & his family ; iloveyou ♥ "

HOHOHO ! happy belated merry christmas to everyone ! ^^

have been working pass few days at nydc at holland !kinda enjoying , colleagues are friendly . hmmm , celebrated christmas with hubby this year was fun to the max ! friday went to orchard to walk around with sophina , johnny & co . saw koksoon , ryan , weixiang and alot more at cine . went to thai disco after that at east coast . the ladies there dance really very beautiful luh . gosh ! no wonder guys like to go .

saturday went out with hubby's family , to have dinner at east coast too . the food was nice (Y) . after that we went home as it was raining , reached homed , chat laugh ,exchange of presents && we have a lucky draw game too . ^^

and homed at 2plus (:

i'm working later at 7. meeting hubby later too (Y)

thats all bah ^^

2010-12-20T11:23:00.002+08:00

" photofunia "

i'm back !! hmmm , nothing much to blog about . but anyway , christmas is coming (: merry christmas alright ! (:

2010-12-19T11:18:00.003+08:00

" times flies so fast "

got back my result , sucks ttm ! but can't blame anyone but myself , for skipping history , for not working hard enough and not listening in class . serve me right for that . but anyway , result's already out . no point regretting in things which i've done . but i promise i'll surely surely work very very hard even if i'm studying in ITE ! Jiayou to me !!

thanks hubby and his family for the support ! appreciate it alot alot .

hmmm , times flies so fast , it's gonna be 2011 soon ! gosh )':

2010-12-13T10:47:00.002+08:00
hey , i'm back . back from malaysia & back to my bloggy !

had lots of fun at malaysia , keep eating non stop ! gain weight already luh . 43kg ! can you imagine ?! gosh ... anyway , meet beloved all the way this week when i came back . work with beloved on friday and sunday . and traders hotel , pohchai intro de . friday after work went to meet hubby (: saturday went underwater world with family , went to find hubby after that , then went bugis , and to Orchard and after that went to pub with hubby, johnny & co . had fun there , went home at 2am plus . yesterday went to meet hubby in the morning ,after that met beloved at inter , traders hotel to work ! after work went to tiong mac for supper ! and home-d !

dead tired , gotta work later at 12 to 10 ! gosh ... i wanna sleep !

hais , anyway thats all bah ! (: photo's on facebook !

hubby , so glad that we've walk so far ! 7th month already ! as i think back , is like , we , from a stranger to a hi-bye friend and finally become lovers . is like so miracle luh ! iloveyou much . i hope that we can hols hands together and walk to the end , loves <3>

malaysia (:

2010-12-02T15:51:00.002+08:00
currently at malaysia , aunt house . LOL .... fun , but the weather here kinda sotsot de . sometimes really very cold , but sometimes hot till can't tahan . growing fatter and fatter . everyday eat eat eat , shop shop shop . my god , i think if i stay here one month , i'm gonna become a big fat pig ! but lucky just a few weeks that i'm staying here .

miss my hubby alot alot .
miss beloved and sweetie too .

seriously , i dont know what's wrong with mummy . hais , forget it . i dont wanna care anymore . that's all uh ! takecare peeps !

i'll be back real soon ! <3

loves (:

2010-11-23T13:26:00.009+08:00

" the memories , the fun , the joy we had "

hey peeps ! back to my this lifeless bloggy .

met up with sweetie at her house there , saw her mum . and find that her mum really very cute . went tiong to meet beloved , have our lunch cum dinner there . walk around , as beloved feel like watching movie , but i din't have the mood to watch , so went to k-box at safra . sorry aye beloved !
saw ashley at kbox . heh , he serve us eh ! went crazy taking pictures with the both of them . laughs , then beloved gotta go off already . left me and sweetie . continue to sing and we video down those songs that we sang , abit crazy aye . but was fun . after k , we walk to bmc , sweetie went shop and save to buy her milk and back home sweet homed !

slept at 1 plus yesterday , cause flu start to make me feel irritated . went to drink cough medicine and too flu's pill too . woke up at .. i forgot what time already . upload pictures now to facebook . hahs !

mummy told me that this sunday we are going back to malaysia already . sad max ! can't even pei hubby on sunday already . but anyway , i'm going to enjoy my saturday with hubby till late !!
miss me aye peeps ! i'll be back soon alrights !

i love you , like i always do . being with you i really learn alot . 197 days together . 6month 13 days . times pass especially fast when we are enjoying ourselves , without us noticing . all the memories keep fill up with new ones . and slowly kept deep down in our heart . never ever will be forgotten . i love you my dear jason tan ying rong . thanks for showering me with your love and care . i know that your care , your concern , your worry ; have never stop . your love for me is still strong . i'm thankfull to have a great boyfriend ! i'm thankfull that i'm yours ! you're the best my dear hubby ! i'll always be there for you , be it physically or mentally . i promise i'll always be the very first one to give you support , to be the one you needed when you need some one to talk to , to lean on . loves to you ! thanks for everything hubby !

2010-11-21T13:20:00.004+08:00

" ℒℴvℯ yℴu ♥ :B "

slacking around this whole week.no work,but did went tampines to help out.hubby just book out yesterday.and pei-d him and his family went west coast eat and shop around.baby jacob's so cute alrights.then went back heights,went to find johnny and co.zy came,and we went to queensway saw ks,ashley and xy.slack at mac till 2plus went home.

i wanna find work!!! i wanna work work work!! but anyway,i'm going back to malaysia soon.29 of nov.miss me eh ,peeps..

my hubby very cute alrights,he always wanna surprise me.but i'm clever to ruin his plan.opps..hehehehs...but i love him very much!!<3hubby,

hubby,left 1month plus you complete your POP already!!jiayou kays.you have my full support^^ loves..

shit me , lost my student pass !

2010-11-15T10:05:00.003+08:00

" the difference between the both "

went heights find hubby for ahwile , went tiong to meet beloved,velle and marpig.had dinner at griller.saw ks,g & xy at arcade!then went to far east plaza.pei-d beloved look for her prom night clothes.beloved gotta go home , pei-d her and went to her house and slack.we went totally insane alrights,make-ups , unglam photo taking.credits to beloved & velle. laughs* overall,i'm having fun with them ehs!!(: back home at 12??

woke up at 9plus 10 now!shag max,lost my student pass.how how how?? )': damn....i dont know where i put or i drop it outside when i'm in a rush.stupid me!!now adays so easy forget things.shit me!!-.-'''

hubby's back to camp!!hope to see him this tuesday or wednesday if can uhs!loves<3

ilove my army lots lots♥

2010-11-14T11:12:00.003+08:00

" i love my army boy!!! "

meet hubby yesterday and his family at tampines.ate at jin tai fung..then went back heights,watch follow law at his house and hubby brought me to a place.but sadly,the guard wouldn't let us in.cause they say close already)': the place was beautiful alrights.but we sat down on the path and chatted.(: while looking at the stars.stars are so beautiful and pretty uhs!the clouds are also very nice.then M & C came..we went to rumah.slack till 3plus then home-d!!

hubby; cheer up alrights.dont sad about it already kays.anything i will always be there for you de.<3

sometimes i really dont know what i'm thinking.seriously,i do hate myself at times.

2010-11-13T12:41:00.003+08:00

" the three of us "

Went K-box yesterday with Akemi Beloved!!!but before that went to meet her at tiong,ate at long john.wanted to watch movie,but this month machiam like no movie like that uhs!went vivo to meet velle and Marpig.after awhile they went off,we both went safra.9plus reached homed!!

woke up 11plus today.hubby just called me^^ hehs,can meet him later already.happy*

♥♥♥
monkey hubby
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6th monthsary ♥

2010-11-12T10:57:00.005+08:00

" ℒℴvℯ yℴu ♥, Jason Tan "

hmmm...work for this week is quite slacking.(: yesterday woke up at 5plus.went to work.half day.end at 12 uhs.went hougang with oonloke and eugene.watched xin min and puggol played against each other.if i never remember wrongly.xin min teams was strong ehs!then bmss played against anderson.

Long time didn't touch volleyball,yesterday played with oonloke and eugene.now hand pain already.hais...starting to miss training and stuffs.felt like going back uhs.but....see how bahs.

after that went tampines to work,the heights and homed!

god,woke up damn early now.dont know what's going on to me now adays.i'm feeling very tired,but i just couldn't get to sleep.but the good thing is i eat alot now!feel hungry easily.bad thing is,if i continue like this.i'm gonna be a pig already!damn...hubby's losing weight,but i'm gaining..zzz...anyway,mummy's going checkup now.hope that everything's alright,and pray that it's just a false alarm.

hmmm...not sure whether i going out later?!cause abit lazy now.see how,if beloved call then say bahs^^

thats all then(:

♥♥♥time passes so fast,6th months together with hubby.i'm very happy that i got a boyfriend who loves me as much as i love him.i'm happy that i got a boyfriend who really really cherish me alot.i'm sorry at times i made mistake and make you angry,do foolish stuffs that make you sad,and even drop tears for me.this 6months,i really really do enjoy the times with you.i dont want your sorry,you told me alot alot alot of sorry when you didn't even do wrong.hubby,this 2 years will pass very fast de uhs.just a blink of eyes,2 months passes.and you left 2months to POP.so yahs.next time,when you wanna say sorry,just tell me iloveyou.cause seriously i dont wanna hear anymore sorry when you never do anything wrong alrights.i'm happy being with you,having you and loving you.i'm happy that i have your family to treat me so good,treat me like sisters and daughters.i'm thankfull.and lastly,i not only wanna celebrate 6monthsary with you,but 6th anniversary with you!iloveyou,jason tan ying rong!!♥♥♥

*just hope that mummy's gonna be okays.i already lose daddy,i cannot afford to lose mummy.and i dont want my siblings to lost parents and become an orphan.they are still young.they knew nothing.pray hard that mummy is really really alright!!daddy,please bless mummy.

speechless

2010-11-04T16:23:00.002+08:00

"What the hack is going on ?"

quite a while since i posted.have been working now adays.working at SEAB might be boring at times.but time was well spent,rather then going out having fun,slacking around.at least got some money to spend is better then nothing.

have been meeting sweetie this few days,crap around after work.going to kbox on tuesday with sweetie ,JN and ken.was quite okays.didn't have the mood to sing,but listening to them singing is quite enjoying especially when they crap about the cheena guy,hu-ge.sweetie just can't stop saying how "handsome" he is.zzzz-.-''' abit sick uhs.having lunch with JN,JH and sweetie is oh so just happy.cause crap is what we always do on the way back to work.so yahs....

thats all.hmmm,im thinking about chalet for 4A and 4C , this is the last year we are together.hmmm,as some of us wont be going for graduation night.chalet might be a good idea for us to gether together for the last time?so yeah...

*i just hope that things will be better.

things are happening,i'm going insane.sorry hubby to have made you so worried.sorry to make you feel sad and heartbroken.hubby im really very sorry.

i hate myself to the max now!

2010-10-23T11:25:00.002+08:00

Mummy♥

Hey!i'm back (:

Yesterday meet chlove to go vivo to find godma and chatted.chlove's father came after that.thought that he was still angry with me.but he was not.(: then hubby call-ed , walk out of food republic saw jie jie and hubby's father they all.went arcade to find them after that.& jie jie send me home.

i'm still not feeling well)': sad..ate medicine already.but still... anyway hubby booking out already!meeting him later uhs!

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hubby thanks for your comfort and those words you've said uhs.seriously , you're the boyfriend who treat me the best of all now.thanks for saying that to me , i will never forget de.& thanks your daddy and family who treated me so good , caring so much for me.i really really appreciate it alot.loves<3

after what i've heard from mummy , my heart beat kinda stop for awhile.mummy said that she's prepared for the worst.i dont know what to say,but keep asking her to go for check up as soon as possible.went to slack at heights with elanie and velle. ask them about this , and they said it might be what i'm thinking of.i started to cry.hubby called,and i told him about it.i cried again too.thinking that what might happens , make me can't stop crying.reached home,i'm alone.listening to songs, tears suddenly drop again.sad max!thinking back how daddy pass away & stuff.i really dont want mummy to become like that.worried about her alot.i once lose a person whom i love the most.now,i wouldn't wanna lose another one.the pain for the first time, seriously is unbearable.i still remember that time daddy pass away,i cried till i almost got asthma attack.i dont want another time anymore.even if people say that they will pass away literally,i mean yes,they do.but not at my age or at brother and sister's age.they are still young.i dont want they becomes orphans. young age without parents.i really dont want.it hurts to see them like this.i really hope when mummy went for that check up,her report would be a good one ; instead of a bad news.

now then i realise , mummy really really suffer alot.now then i know,mummy really really is very important to us.not just only daddy.mummy ; i'm really very sorry alrights.sorry for what i've done last time.but you forgive and forget.thanks alot mummy.

2010-10-21T15:58:00.006+08:00

HAPPY ENDINGS (:

god,darn tired now!but couldn't sleep )': sad die! woke up because of a stupid girl who cheated my feelings)': made me waited for her , but till now she still haven appear nor even reply to my text and call!!! Arghhh...

Anyway , sore throat has been getting worst . drank lots of water already . but the pain is unbearable , every morning when i woke up , i can't even speak . -.- Maybe it's really time to see Doc again )': [ i hate medicine ; the taste sucks to the max !! ] Mummy's been working yesterday and today , therefore gotta stay at home and wait for her to come back home!!

Had been a good good girl yesterday ; staying at home.Hubby call-ed and knew that i stayed at home the whole day , he machiam sound like -.-''' . hahas...but i knew he's just joking.Cause now school holiday already start long ago , i never really stay at home for the whole day since after my N's . i'm also quite surprise i dont feel bored too uhs.

One more day jiu can see my army boy already!happy*

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People might say that in all fairy tales story , happy ending is just a lie making kids believe in it.but in real life ; there isn't any.But who says that there isn't a happy ending?Marriage is a happy ending to relationship isn't it ? till the end of their life journey.until they have white hair growing from their head ;becoming weaker and weaker and finally die in peace with hands holding together.Is just the matter of how they manage their relationships.how they over come obstacle together without blaming each other for fault ; instead encouraging one another.Enduring the pain and giving in to one another.this is the route to Happy Ending.

I believe in Happy Endings.therefore i wanna hold my hubby's hand and walk our life journey; facing obstacles together.& its better to believe then not to believe.i believe me and you , we can overcome all obstacles together.2years of army , hubby , it won't be a problem de!loves you much

i love my monkey

2010-10-20T11:49:00.002+08:00

" our love will go on & on ; non stop "

i'm sick once again.the weather for this year really CMI-.-''' , sometimes cool sometimes hot.damn....keep having flu and sore throat.almost every month?last month even worst alright.

anyway,went k-box with sweetie on monday as its her birthday!!sing till 12.and we walk home(: reach around 1?yeah!

went down tampines yesterday with sweetie to work..was fun(: cause she's mad playing with those cat..zzzz...and she disturb me while im talking to hubby)': went heights after thats.home-d after thats(:

i miss my hubby damn hell loads.2years will pass in a blink of an eyes.now,i wanna work work work & save loads of money!!looking forward to saturday uhs!!my monkey hubby<3

monkey hubby ♥

2010-10-17T12:20:00.004+08:00

" my lovely hubby ♥ "

yesterday went to have dinner with hubby's whole family.as it's his ahma birthday celebration.(: after that went to tiong to watch movie.it's freaking scary okays!!i watch the first half of the movie.it get more scarier luhs.i dont dare to watch luhs!

but i enjoy alot yesterday uhs!happy*

loves hubby lots lots!!he dotes on me alot too uhs!!sweet army boy ♥

iloveyou;jason tan ying rong!!i want you to be my last and forever one(: thanks for yesterday uhs!i really enjoy alot(: hope you too uhs!i can't wait for our 6th monthsary to come uhs!!but time passes very fast luhs.a blink of an eye , we've been together for 5 moths and 7 days!i hope that we can celebrate every event together.christmas , valentine , or even new year ! && especially your birthday and mine too!!hubby,i love you damn hell loads uhs!muacks ♥

2010-10-16T10:48:00.004+08:00
hellos , i'm back to my interesting blog!hahs , abit thick skin uhs. OPPS ;x

went to sentosa on the 13th to celebrate birthday for that retard!then went to make cake for him with elanie , feli , pei ying and reenie.meet the others at bugis for dinner at hong kong cafe?then went safra kbox for awhile.quite fun uhs.but the suay things is that when we reach sentosa, there's someone just die there.alot of police and CID's are there too.but was fun.

yesterday went to tampines to work for korkor with elaine sweetie(: reach there quite early,so went to walk around.chit chat alot with her too.she's crazy over that cheena guy hu-ge uhs-.-'''
my hubby's much better then that cheena guy uhs! opps ;x hahas... hubby book out yesterday already.was so damn happy luhs.he looks damn cute with his uniform on.love die him!

have quite a few pictures in my phone.but dont know how am i going to upload to com.cause i dont have the usb cable for this uhs.so yahs)': sad die.but gonna try uhs.

Btw ;
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO TAN KOK SOON (!)

promise to post a "long" post for you de : so here it goes :

we have been friends since we are in sec1 , strangers in the very beginning.dont talk much.but remember that one day i randomly ask you to be my gan kor?but in the end i say that you're smaller then me so cannot liao.abit lame.but cannot blame lahs.cause still young mahs.dont know how to think.as we get promoted to sec2 , sec3 & sec4.we get to know each other as years pass.and i'm thanking you here for cheering me up when i use to cry or sad & even angry.thanking for disturbing me uhs ; or rather ; entertaining me . calling my mum's and dad's names.much thanks to you.owe you big one.hope you enjoy your birthday celebration uhs.&& sorry for the belated present too uhs.will pass you once its done okays.(:
so yahs...now 16 years old liao uhs.must learn how to think liao ehs.dont like last time lerhs uhs!!
and take good cae of chye fah ehs!!hahs.

that's all bahs!hmmm..long enough?

PS: i love my hubby damn much. he's so damn cute okays.he never fails to make me laugh.thanks alot uhs my monkey hubby.muacks you!thanks for comforting me yesterday.i feeel much much more better already.thanks uhs my dear(: see you later uhs!

didn't knew that daddy once done wrong till like this.but as hubby say since its the past so le it be bahs.
mummy, im sorry.that's all i can say.other then sorry , i dont know what else to say.maybe to you , you will feel that i dont treat you as my mum.but deep down i know i do.i might not understand you , might not understand how you feel now or how pain you're feeling inside.but i just wish that no matter what at least you will tell me what's inside you.so that i know.so that i can help.i hate it when you say you feel like dying.it makes me feel that you're irresponsible.therefore i will get so work up.but i didnt mean it de uhs.i just hope that maybe one day,that one day we can resolve our conflict misunderstandings and become better.i just hope that one day will come.

5th monthsary♥

2010-10-10T11:15:00.005+08:00

" From a normal hi-bye friend ; to a lover ; maybe to a partner that will last forever "

hey hey hey!!

yesterday went out with hubby!meet him at his house,went to central to shop and hubby bought 3 cute cups for me uhs(: then went to bugis cause central didnt have much attraction.walk around bugis street and hubby bought two shirts for me.(: both pink de uhs.^^ went to watch their lion dance at ang shua keng after that?was quite nice uhs..then after that went back to heights.home-d at 12plus.

hmmm,hubby's going to book in later uhs.): but time will pass very fast de uhs!waiting for him to book out again then(:

101010 today is our 5th monthsary.iloveyou.we will last long de rights?hehs!muacks♥

5th monthsary

2010-10-09T13:01:00.003+08:00

" Time passes so fast,Our 5th Monthsary ♥ "

i'm so so so damn happy alrights!exams is over(: finally can relax lerhs.but when result is out is another problem.-.-'''

met up with gensis and chlove pass few days.have fun and talk lots of crap with them.went crazy talking to gensis,heard about her story.found that she's very brave.hope that she is okays.and takecare of herself uhs.

hubby book out yesterday uhs.went to vivo find godma yesterday afternoon.had lunch with her.long time didnt see her already.miss her damn much.then went to guan to meet chlove and co.watched them train and chatted for awhile.then went back heights,to hubby's house waited for him to be back.seriously,i can't stop saying that he looks so damn cute with his uniform on alrights.i will take pictures the next time he wears that uniform again.hehs! meeting him later on ehs!(:

thats all bahs(:

tomorrow's our 5th monthsary.i hope we can continue counting non-stop until we get old and die(: iloveyou,jason tan ying rong!♥

had lots of fun with my cute hubby!

2010-10-02T11:29:00.009+08:00

" every minute with you is always what i looking forward to♥ "

hmmm,thursday hubby,book out!he looks so damn cute in his uniform alrights!♥

yesterday went to bmc had breakfast cum lunch with hubby,2nd sis & johnny.after that went back heights,hubby bought me a contact lens!looks very nice uhs!!(thanks hubby loves you♥ ) then meet johnny at vivo to go universal studio with his friends.had lots of fun,watched a film in there.quite scary but nice(Y) saw fireworks!so damn beautiful,will uploads the video soon uhs!went to shop around the candy shop and chocolate shop.hubby bought me an ice-cream;thanks you much!went back heights to celebrate vernis,felicia's baby birthday.she's so damn cute alrights!mygod,she run to look for johnny when she saw him.she's really cute!!then after awhile jiu homed!

just woke up and now blogging,later meeting hubby soon(: ohyeah!but shag,tomorrow he's going back again.sian-.- zzzzz...but nevermind,i will wait for him to book out again!he looks so damn cute with that uniform alrights!♥

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as i look back to those post of mine,i felt that i change alot.when we were younger,our parents decides everything for us,but now as we grow up we decides ourselves ; our path that we step onto,our journey we are heading towards to.how about our mummys or daddys gonna do?they will leave us apparently ; make us stand on our own feet.no more feeding and pampering.

i feel very guilty towards my mum.she cares alot for me ; us?!but all i do was , make her feel mad over me,scolding her,shouting at her and other stuff.but when ever i done all this,i have never stop and think , everything she have done for me is to show that she love me, cares for me . she feels that daddy is gone , and think that she wanna give me what daddy always gave to me . she wants to play both daddy's and mummy's role to give me or rather us the best.

mummy's right,brother and sister lost a father earlier than me . and daddy give me more then what he had gave them . therefore mummy gotta play his role too to them ; so that younger ones wouldn't feel that terrible . At times, at night , i would think back and cry , a woman gotta bring up 3 kids is not a easy thing. it takes alot of effort , alot of hardship , love and more. mummy thanks for everything uhs!

Time flies , things changes . but there is only one thing will never change which is "love" . Am i right ? Every human being will have this in them . no matter how guys can change their feeling towards the girls , but there will always be "love" in their life . girls too . their love for family , for friends , for lovers and the ones they loved . L.O.V.E is what god gave to us and make us learn .

ohyeah,hubby's booking out today!!

2010-09-30T08:18:00.007+08:00

"i'm happy that i got you as my boyfriend"

today woke up freaking early!!6plus wake up,machiam going to school.but hah,lucky is that i've no school from this week onwards!(Y) exams on the 4th october.gonna go back school.tortures uhs!!

went to changi yesterday,to meet velle at the chalet.hmmm,fall asleep on train.suddenly felt very tired.ride bicycle when reached there.damn,it's so hot alrights.but fun,kanna cut on my feet,due to that stupid bicycle conditions.ass it.till now still abit pain uhs.while velle kanna more wounds then me!the stupid bic really gotta change already.it's like if people gonna ride on it,sure will kanna some injuries de luhs-.-''' anyway helped bbq some food,and homed at 9plus from there.can't sleep over night,so yahs.sad>: but nevermind,i soon will get the chances to ehs!i'll wait for that day i'm free!(Y)

hahs,hubby booking out in 11 to 12 hours time.can't wait to see him alrights,its like...finally two weeks have pass.i miss him tons okays!despite he called me every night to chat,i still feel something's missing without him around.opps,maybe i depend on him much?hehs,i dont think so uhs.i just miss him damn hell loads uhs!!time quickly fly please?zzzz.....

god,i dont know what's wrong with me now a days,i got into people which i think i shouldn't.zzz....bad luck me ehs!hais...-.-''' shag to the max!!!

of everything i learn in life,there's only one thing which i dont wish to learn or maybe i'll never learn,is to "let go".cause,i dont want to let go off your hands,neither would i wanna let you go.pardon me for being so studborn.but i swear that i'll never ever learn that.cause i love you!my stupid monkey hubby.i'm happy that i got you as my boyfriend alrights!felt so blessed to have you.loves♥

2010-09-29T10:56:00.005+08:00

yesterday went to school,took the report book and stuff.went back home at around 10plus.met beloved at city hall,and others at marina square,seoul garden.had lot of fun with the crazy group.

then pei beloved to orchard to meet her friend,homed at 7plus.

1more day can see my beloved hubby(:

ℒℴvℯ yℴu ♥

2010-09-26T10:28:00.006+08:00

"i realize i really really change alot"

went to heights yesterday to find hubby's daddy,sister and little jacob!then went great world to walk walk(: had dinner at bentendo!hubby's father treat.[thanks uncle]
then walk walk and back to heights.hubby called me & chatted for a long while!funny things we talk about makes me laugh like hell.took bus to inter,2nd sis text and ask whether wanna go k box anot,so took bus and went to safra.on the way hubby's is on the phone with me.he never fails to make me laugh alright!but but but...he likes to disturb and di siao me uhs!but i wont lose to him too!yeah...reached kbox and saw 2nd sis,velle and marpig family(: had lots of fun there yesterday.
they sing they dance,hahs!& went home after that.

4 more days and hubby's booking out!ohyeah,can't wait for him to come out uhs!
L.♥.V.E to the max!

6 more days you're booking out!

2010-09-24T11:09:00.003+08:00
i'm back!

have been sick this few days.cancel celebration because of this too.shag..lying on bed almost everyday.whole body ache till can't tahan.took medicine,the more i eat the more i feel giddy,wanna vomit.-.- dont know what's wrong with me now a days.freak....

didn't attend school almost this whole week.hais...anyway thats all bahs(:

glad that hubby's doing alright in his training.&& he sounds happier (:great!!:>6 more days he's booking out already!im waiting for it.ohyeah!!miss him hell loads uhs..

&& lastly!!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KIMBERLY TEOYQ!

you this siaozharborh!thanks for cheering me up and always lend me your listening ears alrights!
you never fail to make me laugh alrights!!enjoy your 16 birthday ehs!even though your still younger then me,but its okays lahs.hmmm,last long with your scorpion too ehs!!loves<3

i miss my hubby hell loads!!wish to see him soon ehs!<3

BORED

2010-09-17T13:38:00.004+08:00
pei hubby to tekong yesterday with his family.
went to vivo at around 3plus.
then home after that.stay at home the whole day.

thats all bahs!

BORED
BORED
BORED
BORED
BORED

1st day

22 hours left and counting down

2010-09-15T12:18:00.003+08:00
left 22hours your going to army already.god,i can't imagine how would it feels those days without you.i wouldn't even dare think about it.yesterday you send me those message makes me cry.i will wait for you de uhs!i promise,and i hope you believe in me alrights.i love you.
hubby,let me send you tomorrow lehs.please please..

imissyou!jason tan ying rong(!)

meeting hubby later(Y)

2010-09-12T12:13:00.002+08:00
exams exams exams(!) damn shag.english paper,social study all done.left maths,bio,chem & dnt papers to go.hmmm,tomorrow maths paper.but i didn't even touch a single shit of it uhs.anyway,try my luck tomorrow then,its only prelim.hmmmm...meet chlove this few days.
slacked at heights uhs.

went sentosa on thursday with hubby,felicia,calvin goh,his girlfriend zhengda & a slut!meet them at heights in the morning,cab to sentosa.reached there around 9plus 10 plus uhs.then slacked there till 1pm then went vivo to eat and walk walk.hmmm,back to hubby's house and sleep for awhile.went study after that and homed at 11plus(:

went down heights yesterday,slacked for awhile and went vivo.homed at 10plus.
shag luhs,during this period of time,i gotta reached home by 11pm.damn ):
i wanna go out,N"level quickly over please..zzzzzzzzzzzz......

4more days,army for you.god!i'll miss you like hell.i want send to your camp on that day hubby!
& cheer up okays.she'll be alright de.takecare too uhs.iloveyou,monkey♥

2010-09-04T14:26:00.010+08:00
im bored at home>: so i thought that i'll write some things(:

MONKEY HUBBY:

hubby,thanks for being there for me everytimes alrights.iloveyou ehs<3>
in 12 more days time you're going for army already): i'll miss you alot alot de uhs. love you.our 4th month is coming too(: (Y) hahs..takecare lots uhs.muacks<3
love die you :B

CYNTHIA KONG:

beloved(!)
exams coming already uhs.study hard and pass alrights :B.then we can have lots of fun together(:
and i wanna say many many thanks to you ehs.thanks for being there for me when im sad,down.thanks for cheering me up.and lastly last long with your baichi okays?hah.eveything will be fine with him de eh.dont think too much uhs(: loves you<3
see you soon :>

CHLOVELLE TAN:

hey babe.better buck up for your studies uhs.no matter what i hope you can pass your N.wanna tell you that you're a good good friend uhs.even thought we've had conflicts,misunderstandings before.but i hope that,that is our past.forgive and forget eh?i wish we can be good good friends as long as possible.even if we have conflict.i hope we can say sorry and make up uhs?thanks for being there for me,sad and angry.thanks alrights(: last long long with marpig ehs.dont quarrel so much already kays?and dont say things that make you regret and chill whenever you're angry kays?all the best to you babe :x much loves<3>

KIMBERLY TEO:

hey siaozhaborh ; darling ! takecare of yourself uhs. wish you score as high as possible for your N.you sure can do it de lahs.heh!thansk darling for cheering me up and care for me so much ehs!and thanks for making me go crazy with you uhs.last long with your scorpion ehs.much loves<3

TANKOKSOON:

hey,all the best for your exams okays?takcare lots uhs(!)good lucks alrights.goodlucks!

&& lastly i think we class 4C is the last year we get together already uhs.i'll miss our class jokes,jokers.and i'll definitely miss our class disturbing teachers(!) especially during ss & dnt!
some classmates have been together for 4 years,some 2 years.(Y)

2010-09-04T11:33:00.004+08:00
this week is the last we have lesson in school.next week N'level starts.everyone gonna be very "stress".everyone in facebook is talking about social studies.even kimberly that siaozhaborh ask me to study social study also-.-
yesterday school's fine.played handball during pe lesson(: fun(!)went to bio class after recess.phuay heng's talking about what teachers always like to say."our future life for us".went to pct class.belwit gave us some tokens to wish us goodlucks for N.
after school,homed to change.met koksoon and xuyang to go heights together.then went vivo with hubby to buy hubby's father present(:
then back to his house.went out to have dinner with whole family to celebrate hubby's father birthday(Y)
after eating,cut cakes.actually wanted to surprise hubby's father.but the candles condition was so...in the end didn't manage to do so.>: hahas....
then went lohyang to pray and homed after that(:

later meeting kimberly the siaozhaborh to study social study.gotta bring sis along.
thats all bahs(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE(:

HEY,PEEPS! ALL THE BEST FOR UP COMING EXAMS UHS.GOODLUCKS AND LETS CHIONG OUR N'S TOGETHER(Y)

2010-08-29T11:19:00.003+08:00
im back to blog(: hmmm...school's fine,except that test & exams have been given quite a number of times this week.shag): exams coming in 9 more days i think?gotta buck up with my studies uhs.especially maths and english(!)

hmmm,working on wednesday ..then on friday went to meet hubby,ks,chlove,marpig & zewei.
then went to jurong east with hubby and ks,as they gotta work mahs.watch the getai.damn funny uhs.went home around 10plus(:

yesterday gotta work.fun(:
cause got one siao zha borh working with me,making me laugh till like shit.hah.
anyway thats all bahs(:

left 18days before you left for army.i'll sure miss me like mad):
love die you hubyy<3

2010-08-18T16:53:00.003+08:00
celebrated my beloved CYNTHIA KONG'S BELATED BIRTHDAY yesterday.
kim,ks,hubby,xy,murphy,sam& brother.
kbox at safra(:

hmmm....today have mock exam for chem...damn..
&& i got a B4 for my chinese olevel.im gonna retake even if its consider a A2 for nlevel.
zzzzz.....i put in so much effort and i only got that.sad die me):

anyway thats all bahs(:

CYNTHIA KONG:
happy belated my girl.wish you have fun yesterday alright,
cheer up more and concentrate on studys.what's yours will always be yours.
even if you push it away,i wont go off.but what wasn't yours no matter how much you fight for it.it still useless.so im sure one day,it will come.take care ehs(: all the best for your nlevels(:
loveyou,look at the bright side ehs(:seee you in school then<3

i know we're drifting apart,dont tell me i think too much.this is the truth.you say you wont give up.neither will i.i just hope that you wont think too much too.left 28 more days you're going to army.can we just cherish the times we get together rather then colding or doing others stuff which makes both of us feel unhappy?im sorry if you still feel that i dont love you enough.im sorry if i let you feel im sold towards you.i just hope there's nothing between us we'll hide.thats all.

2010-08-15T11:18:00.003+08:00
school's days was just two days for me(:
monday national day celebration,tuesday school holiday,wednesday dont need go school.
thursday had english prelim paper.ends at 12pm..friday social studies paper.

boring week.

MOODLESS

im sorry for that.really very sorry

2010-07-31T14:32:00.003+08:00

"finally understood what does friendship means(: tyvm"

yesterday school's fine(:
except keep kanna disturb by Raymond Low & Darryl Tan >:
assembly during pct period.talk about graduation night thingy,whether we wanna have a club night or a dinner and dance night.most of us probably choose club bahs(:

went home changed and stuff,down to vivo to work.
kanna disturb again also >: kim that siao zhaborh came to find me ^^
hubby came after that too with koksoon,Johnny,Ahbee & co.
i went home while they went to watch movie...was kinda tired uhs.):

woke up at 10plus today?brought sis & bro to eat at market.
god,nlevels is getting closer & closer.prelim's just 2weeks away i guess?gotta buck up.
tuitor ask me to finish my book of n level maths by n level.and i've gotta chiong 28chapter of that.before nlevel maths i still gotta do my revision paper.zzzzz.....going to be retarded already..
hahs!but it okays,after N,im gonna enjoy myself(:

thats all bahs(:

i miss my hubby(: loves him too<3

that's how our friendship ends right?we saw each other,but we both treat each others as strangers.great.thanks for that(:

2010-07-29T14:02:00.002+08:00

back to blog again(:
school's fine...
exams coming school;god(!) N LEVELS =.=
anyway,i've been staying at home recently (Y) ima good girl okays.

geee....monday went to meet hubby at his house & off to vivo with him and his sister(:
went to sakae sushi to eat,his sister's treat(: [thanks you very much ^^]
then went to walk around vivo to find for brother's ben ten present for his birthday(!)
went to mphosis to look look, and was shock that his sis bought me a pair of slippers?shoes?
hmmm,very happy (!) thanks alot uhs^^
then went tiong to look for brother's present as vivo toy'r'us dont have.
bought him shirt,waterbottle and wallet.hubby paid for it.): but thanks hubby lots<3
then went back to his house again.homed at 10plus.

tuesday i stayed at home as brother's birthday uhs.nothing much.celebrated with him(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU THIS PIG
LIM ZHE SHEN (:

yesterday went to meet hubby after school,then went to bugis with his sister and hubby to buy things(:then went back to his house(: homed at 10plus(:

today's having tuition later.shag shag..anyway premlim's coming,mock exams and n levels near too.die die die.wish me lucks then(:

thats all bahs(:

since we become like this,i wont blame anyone but myself.maybe for trusting too much & for being so stupid in this friendship and lead to this state.since you're fine with that.i'll too.never thought that once we said those things are now a false promises to each other.it okays.
im so stupid to feel sad over this when you dont even feel anything.but now i've move on.it's just the same as last time.i wont & swear that there will be no more next time.i treasure this friendship alot,like i told you.but seriously do you?

2010-07-22T14:46:00.004+08:00
back to blogging(:
last week went prawn fishing with hubby,ks,chlove,marvin,km,kl,ahbee and more.
stay there till 6plus then went home.reached home 7am.
fun(:
after that went jacob birthday celebration around 4pm plus.
saw hubby's relative.at first abit scare.but after all its quite okays eh.
hubby send me home(: chatted with him too.

this week nothing much,except yesterday singapore president's wife came to our school.
some sec ones went crazy,racial harmony day yesterday.got ms lim to do some henna on my hands(:
then went library to play with the sari thingy.beloved drag me up to wear the sari & we both took pics(:
machiam like retarted like that.but its quite fun(:
went clarke quay to find chlove and hui.
hubby sis and her boyfriend drove us there.then around 10plus went home.
chatted with hubby near the mrt playground.and home-d

today nothing much happened,boring day):
damn late for school today.zzzz.....but lucky yip let me go.cause its raining & i got myself wet(!)
overslep because of the good weather><
hmmm...thats all bahs(:

hubby,cheer ups okays(:
anything i'll be there for you de(!)
iloveyou<3

feeling so miserable,why not just let go.and let him learn how to grow up.you can't always be there for him.it's his life,he gotta learn how to walk him on journey himself.its hurts to see you in this state.i dont wish you do those kind of things to hurt yourself anymore cans?try not to if possible.i'll always be there for you no matter what.dont think,worry too much anymore.
listen to what they say ,maybe it will works ad you wont feel so stress anymore.<3
no point getting angry because of that,it will only trouble you but not them.
why harm your health because of that?no point alright.cheer up dear<3

i'm utterly disappointed.didn't know you'll be like this.hope nothing happeneds bahs.

2010-07-11T10:54:00.003+08:00

" my lovely hubby<3>

HAPPY 2ND MONTH(:
finally second month have past,looking forward to more month-sary with you.
thanks for being with me for all this long,
thanks for accepting my everything.
thanks for tolerating my childishness at times.
sorry to make you upset,heartbroken & stuffs.
but i promise, i'll try my best in everything.
no matter what i hope you will be my very last guy.
monkey hubby,i'll remember every lil thing you've done for me.
iloveyou <3>
10052010

yesterday went down heights to meet hubby,
3days didn't meet lerhs):
slack his house.cause quite tired uhs & abit sick uhs.
jacob had his hair cut;he looks very cute with it alright^^
hmmm,then home at 11plus,hubby send me home(:

now currently im still not feeling well uhs.
damn,flu,sore throat.zzzzz....

2010-07-06T16:13:00.002+08:00
hey peeps,im using com now.
bored dead :>
dont think im meeting dear today.
helping out at home.
schools days sucks.but no matter what im still gonna buck up.
N'levels coming,so "cheers"
hee...anyway thats all bahs(!)

2010-07-04T12:27:00.007+08:00

" cherish the ones that you love, loves the ones who love you "

hmmm,back to blog(:
first day of school starts hairstyling lesson(:
having great fun uhs.
perm hair,cut hair,colouring of hair & etc..

yesterday went to meet dear at his house,
janson was there too.
played "soccer" with him.
geee....
watched soccer & ip man at his house too.
then homed at 2am plus..

Now maybe rotting at home uhs

"He is my one & only loves"

we both have been through quite a few difficulties.we both quarrel cause of misunderstandings.
but you always never fail to say sorry,even if its not your fault.because of my age,my thinking,you accepted my childishness sometimes.& played with me.you've never fail to dote on me,never fail to pampered me.even if i told you my childish thinking,you might feel sad but after awhile you still talk to me calmly and explain to me.Monkey hubby,i love you.

you told me you wont leave me alone,i hope you really wont.
i want you to be my last and only(!)
hearts you lots.hope we can last as long as we can(!)

Lim Shu Chuan love Jason Tan Ying Rong.
10052010

2010-06-27T13:19:00.002+08:00
hey hey(!)
im back,my com is back(: geee...
finally i can blog as and when i like already,miss me eh?

today's the last day of holiday.gotta say goodbye to night life.
damn....use to sleep at 2,3 am in the morning,suddenly have to change.
abit not use to it uhs.
hmmm,no choice,schools reopening tomorrow.
gotta sleep early tonight.
hais....&& i gotta study now.gotta buck up, tomorrow i shall pull my socks up high(!)
jkjk....

yesterday,work from 1plus to around 9plus.
went heights to buy things and head to safra for pool(:
after pool,headed to queensway mac.
after that reached home at 4plus am.

woke up 11 today.
slept for only a few hours.
gotta tahan till tonight.if not tomorrow can't wake up for school lerhs.
zzzzz.....stupid course tomorrow.hope it will be fun eh.
hah(!)
anyway meeting Audrey and her mum later.miss her lots uhs.
^^ thats all bahs.post another time(:

many things happened,sometimes i just wish that i could be alone and just be alone.
to think and thats all.

maybe i think too much,or i ask for too much.
you already treated me damn good already.
but i still demand for more.
i dont know what i'm thinking.
im scare of quarrelings already,i hate it and im trying to avoid it.
but please i really dont want because of what i've said makes the both of us quarrel.
i dont want because of my stupid unreasonable thinking and makes us quarrel.
i dont wana break,you too dont want right.
i just wanna have a stable relationship,and carry on with my live happily.
im sorry to say whatever i've said yesterday.
i dont wanna add any troubles to you.
sorry monkey hubby.i love you,like how you do.
trust me please,and stay with me.

2010-06-15T22:56:00.004+08:00
back to blogging again uhs.
slept at 3am plus,woke up 2pm plus today.
went to velle's house,zewei came...
went safra play pool,saw ahjin and friends
then saw johnny and ks,xy came...
went to eat,then saw a few more came.
currently still at velle's house now.
she's sleeping like a log.-.-'''

4th day you are at taiwan,
should know that i miss you.
waitting for 6 more days to pass.
have a weird feeling towards that,but i dont know how to describe.
hope that when you came back,you can see all my goodnight messages.
we use to have goodnight messages uhs.so eventhought you're overseas,i'll still send you(:

love you lots.takecare ehs.muack<3

suddenly,i miss my daddy alot.
this few days,or pass few days,
saw alot of people,a family,having a father,mother and siblings together.
i felt very envy,some sort or somehow jealous.
i know that we can't prevent death from us.
but i just never imagine i would lost my dad so fast.
i haven even done my job to treat him good,and take care of him,
and he just leave me and my mum,siblings to the other part of the world.
can't even see him,can't even hear him say a word.
6years have past,but i can still remember the day,how the funeral has been done.
how i overcome the crying and stuff.
the pain is more painfull then you break up and lose the one which you love the most as a outsider.
my dad has been the one who dotes on me,treat me de best,

seeing my mum found her new partner,im happy.
but i just can't accept him as my daddy.
i know that no one ask me to call him as my dad.
but i just can't accept a unfamiliar guy to be my step dad.
no blood ties,nothing.
im sorry to say this.but i just can't accept.

i only have one dad.and will always be.

daddy,i miss you....

2010-06-12T09:52:00.003+08:00
heyyo peeeps(:
back to blogging now ehs...

just celebrated first month with hubby(:
thanks for the dress and the card(:
love it lots...

overnight at hubby's house on thursday night,
went home yesterday afternoon...
mum didn't scold me eh,only talk nia,curfew again.
need reached home by 12am for one month.
hmmmm,yesterday uncle came.
brought them to vivo,went down heights after that to wait for hubby(:
slack at shelter with marpig,velle.then zewei came,haoge pass by so chat with him abit uhs
hubby bought chocolate & tako balls for me ehs(!)hah thanks thanks hubby<3

then around 10 plus jiu went home with velle.
hubby went henderson wave to meet his friends.

can't really sleep till around 4plus.
hais,hubby on the way to taiwan now.
8 to 10 more days then he came back.
only just a few hours,missing him now.damn...
Opps :B
later he saw this post,im gonna be dead.
zzzzzzz....
hahas....anyway thats all bahs

ohyahs,btw my phone pin blocked,can't use.
gotta go singtel and unblock it if can.
so currently can't be contacted.
so yahs,anyway ...im changing new number sooon.so dont worry peeps.
still can contact me,maybe tomorrow getting new number already(:

im gonna have my hair cut soon(!)

hubby thanks for the gifts that you gave me.
appreciate it alot.
love it too,never ever recieve this kind of things before from any guy.
you're the first alright.
swear to keep it and treasure it.hope that you like what i've given you.
must always have it by yourside okays.
missing you now,takecare uhs.
loveeeee...muacks(:
10052010<3

im sorry to have said that,but seriously,dont waste your time on me.
cause the mircale you said wont happened de.im sorry

2010-06-09T00:43:00.008+08:00

"hope that we will be better "
heyyo(!)
long time didn't post already..
finally got to post something uhs...
went woodlands today,with two sweethearts(:
went to shop at causeway point.currently singapore having sales uhs.
one of my besties craving for it already.going mad because of this stupid sales.
anyway have been working uhs..
so yahs...

im done with blogging pictures upload next time(:

damn(!)

2010-05-20T14:03:00.002+08:00
hah!!!!!!exams over.
papers checking todays.
damn only pass my chinese so far.HOW GREAT ^^

woke up at 12plus yesterday.
didn't went to school,cause its olympic day for merahans(!)
im not involve so yeah.slept till i feel contented(:
woke up call dear ,cynthia ,velle and zw.
went down heights.dear sis cook for us(:
nice(Y)
then slack at shelther.
went bbtc.reached home 2am.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....woke up this morning 6plus.
school and now at velle's house blogging.
school's freaking me out.
im bored....im tired.i wanna sleep,and work(!)
damn.............

hehe....thats all bahs.

<3 beloved,monkey hubby,baby(:

2010-05-15T20:25:00.004+08:00
yesterday,only one word to describe "FUN"
went to celebrate babby's birthday in advance.
cynthia,cynthia's friend,zewei,marvin & dear.
went to chinatown bar1 to drink & sing.
reach there around 6plus and left there at 9plus.
hmmmm,after that went to eact coast.
ate mac and we went to catch toys(:
cab back and sent zewei home first.
then left me,dear,babby and marpig.
chat with dear till morning 5plus 6.
he sent me home &went home.
slept till this afternoon 4plus 5plus..
currently at baby's house.
hehe...
really had lots of fun.

monkey hubby:
thanks for that bear bear eh.
and mostly the flower.
thanks(:
i'll always hug it to sleep de.
love you<3
muacks.

CHLOVELLE tan:
baby!!
happy birthday in advance(:
hope you enjoy your birthday celebration.
iloveyou.
will surprise you on your birthday itself.
<3 takecare of yourself alright.
dont always skip your meal okays.
anything,i'm just a few busstop away or 8digit number away.
so no matter what happened,i'll always be by yourside kays(:
hehe(:

2010-05-12T14:16:00.004+08:00
a post to my beloved.

CYNTHIA KONG:thanks for being there for me.
when im down you always help me and cheer me up.
thanks alot.
eveytime make you worried,im sorry.
i promise i will not make you worry anymore.
hehe.thanks thanks<3 aini uhs.
hope you really find someone who dote on you.
cause see you having fun with us,but when our beloved came to meet us
we like ps you like.
im sorry..
willyou forgive me?
hahas...kay kays.
promise me must take care of yourself alright.
loves<3 always go out together kays.
24hours for you kays

CHLOVELLE TAN:
babby!!!thankd to you too.
match maker worhs..
hahas...anyway cheer up kays.i''ll always be there foryou.
im just 8 numbers away only.
24hours for you too.so taker care okays.
thanks for being there for me too alrights.

im so happy to have two beloved and one aiai which is teo ze wei(:
hehe.

thats all bahs

over its over,no point hanging on when im already giving up on you

2010-05-12T13:52:00.003+08:00
long long time didn't post.so im back again(:
wakakas..alot of things this few days.
but after all,im still happpy and laughing like how i use to(:

thanks to my beloveds(:
went to library alot forthe pass few days!
yeah,im guai de okays.
anyway,yesterday went purmei toplay swing swing with usual clique.
fun fun fun.someone came to surprise me worhs.
hahas...
reached home around 2plus in the morning.
went to lalaland after bathing(:
zzzzzzz.......not enough sleep this few days.
damn ):

im very very happy luhs.
thanks to my golden monkey
heart to heart talk with him.
<3 heart him.
10052010.

over is over,not point telling me all this now.
since you say that i hurt you,suit you bahs.
im tired,tired of this.
hope found your someone bahs.
cause i already found.
wanna say me bitch or slut,whatever.
cause you've never once stop saying this to me.
im use to it.
to those outsiders,if you dont know what's going on between me and him.
jolly well mind your own business and stop poking your nose into mine
and stop assuming everything as if you know.
i dont wanna talk about this anymore.
this is the last post which im gonna talk about this.
from my other post onward.
there wont be him anymore.
seriously,till now you still wont admit where you've done wrong.
i give up alrights.
bye!

ilovemy monkey(:

update bloggy

2010-04-30T14:54:00.005+08:00
its kinda long that i didn't post uhs.
bloggy's dead):
updating my bloggy now.

exams coming,and im like "oh god,relaxing still?"
hmmmm.....dont really have that kind of motivation for studying now!
anyone can help?
zzz.....must buck up for my main 4 subjects ehs.
if not sure will fail till damn jialat.

today didn't go to school cause,don't feel like & im freaking sleepy):
went to zhu's house to sleep(:
home to change after that,then went back to find him.
currently at his house,but he's missing.
where is that pig uhs(?)

anyway yesterday just had my chinese oral.and i think i could at least pass.
cause its quite easy,the conversation with mr chu was quite okays too.

left 7 more days to exams.i'm gonna study from now on,this minute,this second.
but i wish i could uhs.
feeling very sleepy pass few days,even thought i slept quite long enough.
hais...im old olready(!) );

hah!!anyway thats all bahs,pictures (:

chlovelle cheer up!i know how pain it is to lose a love one.
but you will soon overcome the pain.
like how i overcome it for the pass 6 years.
cheer up!(:i'll always be your listening ears and lending you my shoulder.(:

i miss you,daddy.its hard not to think of you,when i went to chlovelle's ahgong funeral.
daddy,i really really miss you,i wanna see your face again.even only one time,
i will be very happy already.i can't forget the day when i went to collect your body.
the pain is the most unbearable pain that i ever had in my life,daddy,i know i've done alot of wrongs things.
but i want you to tell me face to face what i've done wrong,and correct me,scold me.
i wanna eat macdonalds every sunday morning with you.
i really miss those times when you fetch me after your work with your bike.
no matter its rainning or what you will always fetch me with that bike.
6 years had pass,the pain is still within me,how could you be so cruel to leave me,didi,meimei & mostly mummy behind?
hais...daddy i really miss you alot alot.

dead blog

2010-04-14T15:41:00.003+08:00
im back to blogging after soooo long.
hmmm...my blog's dead once again.but now im gonna save it and make it alive.
went to sentosa,universal studio with zhu!!
had great fun ehs,
hmmmm,last saturday school's having festivo.
alot of people,family,visitors came to school.
have to sell tidbits,so belwit went to set a duty roster.
was kanna dunk by some peeps.was fun
principal,vp,ms prema and alot more get dunk-ed too.
zhu came to school too(:

today had some quarrels with someone,dont wanna mention about it either.
so yahs,simply just a childish and over sensetive person.
anyway,if she wanna play,i will play with her in anyway.
think she got some one to help her she very big,act till so guailan.
even the whole class also dont like her luhs.
zzzz.....

hmmmm,exams coming in 24days time.
have to really pull up my socks,be a good girl and start studying.
have to pass mid year and prove to my old witch,saying that i did really study.
if not,nagging and grounding will be part of my daily routine again,once i fail.
so yahs,peeps,wish me lucks ehs...

dont know whether wanna go for training tomorrow anot.
cause kinda weird ehs,long time didn't go then suddenly go for no reason.
zzzzzzz......abit scared scare eh.

thats all bahs.tomorrow school,day after tomorrow still got school.
hais...two more days then can really have a goodnight sleep uhs.
zzzz....i want my beauty sleep uhs!!!!!!!!!!!

ilovezhubajie(:
thanks uhs..!!

what the hack?-.-

2010-03-28T17:00:00.004+08:00
today's bored...
went to queensway for awhile.
came heights....
now blogging...
zzzzzzzz....bored.tomorrow's school..
damn....hais....gotta pull my socks up high and buck up.
chiong chiong chiong my subjects already..
so wish me lucks...

didn't realize everything was only a dream until you wake me up by your broken promises. didn't realize that i'll feel the pain too. it happened so suddenly,and now it time to face the reality. even i feel awkward,i will still hang on. act as if nothing has happened before. forgetting everything,do as not to make myself to feel sad,guilty or even foolish.

dead..

2010-03-27T22:24:00.003+08:00
woke up at 8plus 9 went to help mummy cook and stuff,
around 10 plus off to clementi.
homed after that...
takecare of sis...
went out,now at pig house blogging uhs.

if you were me,which type would you choose?

regreted the act!freak...

2010-03-26T14:12:00.009+08:00
blog blog blog.
zzzzzz.....this week kinda sucks.
studyy camp this week uhs..
monday went for it.quite okays...quite fun though..
tuesday and wednesday didn't went to school.cause something happened.
didn't have the mood to study.instead went for tuition at clementi,
yesterday was okays..went to science center for the perfume thingy..
almost wanna puke.cause the smell CMI-.-
but its quite fun.at least we got to go out of school to have some fun.
hmmmm....after that went back school.lunch with samuel.
library having the DISC talk.
quite funny,cause the coach's a joker!(:
homed after school...went to bring bro & sis home.
and off to mac to study with zewei and chlovelle.
cam-whore(:
home at 10plus.

today didn't went school.didn't have the mood to.kinda speechless towards somethings.
anyway thats all bahs.!post another uhs.

i regreted my act on that day.
but its too late to feel guilty now.
things have happened which i dont want it to happened;or rather,didn't thought that it would happened.hais....still can remember how the things happened.hais...im kinda scare to face her.real scare.i dont know what to do now.

& bitch...stop your fucking non sense.
not happy with me,just say out.no need go around my back and say things about.
got guts to say;why no guts say infront of me?
thought you very ehsai de?
please lahs...thought you always say that people who go around other's back say their things is always a loser?
now i think you are one uhs
freak...how great.if wanna find me,i will always wait for you.
cause i can't tolerate your nonsense anymore uhs.
sucha bitch.(L)<--this should fit you now!

cam-whore(:

cat fights(:

standby-->ready--->take off!

monkey face--->kanna stroke--->pig face